[LittleForgetMeNot]

I'm lonely and anxious and depressed. I'm emotionally exhausted. I'm tired of my friend one day saying I'm important and the next leaving me waiting for over 4 hours. I'm tired of being manipulated and used. However, I'm not in school right now. I cannot be, until September. I had a hard time dealing with school and I ran away from it. I haven't been since September of last year. However slowly my friends have been getting worse and worse, or dissappearing all together.

I'm tired of feeling so upset, tired of being so lonely. I wanna be happy again. I wanna go do something for myself so I wont be so dependant on all these people.. But it's a good 6 months until maybe I'm set free. I don't know if I can make it..

[OrangeMoira]

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time right now.

I hate being left waiting, too! Did you confront your friend about it?

Is there anything you can do for yourself before September? Join a class or community center? Take care!

[LittleForgetMeNot]

Yeah, today I finally got rid of a confusing friend who enjoys manipulating me. He said the other day that I was lucky he still chose to speak to me even though he has been the worst. Today he said he wouldn't let me "ruin" his mood because he had something going with a girl. He treated me like I was horrible, as if I were out to get him and he was just God's gift to the world.

I got rid of him, and I don't feel so upset by it.. but waiting so long might make me weak again. I don't know what I could do, a lot of things cost money and the reason why I cannot go to school right now or through the summer is that we cannot afford a babysitter to watch and take care of my brother. There's not much to do, and being stuck in the house all day has negative effects.