[LittleForgetMeNot]

Today, has been an overwhelmingly good day. My best friend is finally done with exams and capable of talking to me a lot again, my ex bf and I have called truce and started talking again like normal people, and a crush from 4 years ago has come back and decides it's a good time to flirt and show some interest..

I feel so good, the excitement and butterflies and laughs are all in my blood and chest and everywhere and it feels amazing.. and yet i feel like crying, i feel scared. I haven't been this happen in maybe years.. I don't remember the last time I was this happy and the last time I felt good and happy I was hurt and destroyed. There is a possibility this could all come back on me and kick me in the bottom.. and I can't go back to that dark place again.. What do I do?

[LittleForgetMeNot]

Every few minutes I tear up. I don't want to cry, I don't know why I keep getting all upset.. I'm supposed to be happy so why..? Why do I feel so icky underneath it all..?

[kaliope]

after experiencing so many negative emotions for so long, it is really hard to trust the good ones so when weve got them, its hard to believe they are going to stick around. we start looking around for every little sign that they are going to leave us.

inevitably they will, they do. we wont stay that happy forever. so knowing this just throw caution to the wind and enjoy them while you have them. just tell those nagging feelings of doubt to f*** off and experience those tears as tears of joy, feel good!

[Direction]

I agree when we feel negative emotions for so long, that it feels uncomfortable to enjoy the good ones...feeling guarded. Enjoy! Use this time to realize that you are so much more than your emotions...that various externals effect your mood...take some time for you!