today i feel as if someone is reaching down deep inside my soul and reaching my very existence out. I know many many people will celebrate today as a day to be with their dad , to hug him to have cook outs to do all those things I used to do with my dad. to them I say hold him close, tell him how much you love him, tell him every day,, not just today, but every day.

Then there are those who have no contact with their dad for whatever reason there may be who wishes they did , i say to you, im sorry you feel that loss , though that loss is different than what is caused by death, it is a grief and for your pain today, i say, i feel you.

Then there are those who have contact with their dad's who have to spend time with him who don't want to spend time with him for whatever reason, to you i say, you have a choice...make a choice , then live with that choice, make that choice ...and decide if your choice is what you want and what you need in your life

With that said

Today, is not a good day for me, my emotions are this, pure sadness , heart break and the desire and longing to be with my dad, i would give up anything to have just 5 minutes with my dad today..I mean ANYTHING!!! If only! if only! if only! So you all excuse me today if i have an emotional breakdown.

hugs
karren

[LavalampTerry]

I would fall into the second category. I broke off relations with my "Father" this past week. (Lousy timing, I know - just the way it worked out...) I've made myself a promise to NOT call him today. To NOT be reminded of the years of abuse - and to have it continued today. And I will miss my Dad. Not "that man" - but the Daddy I wish I had - who the little boy in me misses. My T calls it my "Little Boy Psyche." I don't miss "that man." I will the dad I wish I had had...

But I HAD to make the decision to not allow the abuse to continue! And, lousy timing or not, I'm hoping I keep my promise to myself today. It's gonna be a tough day... But maybe my boys will call.. Maybe they'll tell me that they love me. That they're thinking of me. They're all grown now. One's in Iraq & one's raising a family. And maybe my little girl will call... Maybe she'll want to get re-aquainted with her Daddy who she hasn't seen in 20 years... One can hope, right?

Did I mention it's gonna ne a TOUGH DAY??

And I'm sorry for all those who's days will be difficult, for whatever reason. To those who don't have these "issues," I hope they can enjoy the day with "Daddy." And feel gratitude that they have what so many of us didn't.

Originally Posted by Lavalamp

I would fall into the second category. I broke off relations with my "Father" this past week. (Lousy timing, I know - just the way it worked out...) I've made myself a promise to NOT call him today. To NOT be reminded of the years of abuse - and to have it continued today. And I will miss my Dad. Not "that man" - but the Daddy I wish I had - who the little boy in me misses. My T calls it my "Little Boy Psyche." I don't miss "that man." I will the dad I wish I had had...

But I HAD to make the decision to not allow the abuse to continue! And, lousy timing or not, I'm hoping I keep my promise to myself today. It's gonna be a tough day... But maybe my boys will call.. Maybe they'll tell me that they love me. That they're thinking of me. They're all grown now. One's in Iraq & one's raising a family. And maybe my little girl will call... Maybe she'll want to get re-aquainted with her Daddy who she hasn't seen in 20 years... One can hope, right?

Did I mention it's gonna ne a TOUGH DAY??

And I'm sorry for all those who's days will be difficult, for whatever reason. To those who don't have these "issues," I hope they can enjoy the day with "Daddy." And feel gratitude that they have what so many of us didn't.

if i could, i would take your pain away, and i would make that call for you, but i can't , alli can say is , i know that TOUGH DAY feeling , know it's ok to feel how you feel ....

hugs my friend