[my3sns]

depressed is my emotion... i DONT cry , get angry , get hurt , feel happy , feel scared , i dont laugh ... its basically always the same and has been for years... despite many years of therapy and meds ... i just dont know how to feel like most people i guess .... is there really ANY hope

[Direction]

One thing I realized that I have done is only identifying with one emotion when I may be experiencing a lot more...you may want to explore say this chart...do any other emotions speak to you? If so, can you figure out why? I keep this in my WRAP and when I can't figure out how I'm feeling it is usually because I'm feeling 5 or more of these at the same time...no wonder I've struggled so to figure it out...

[madisgram]

i can relate to your not crying, etc. when i was severely depressed all my emotions shut down and i was "flat". do u discuss these examples with your pdoc?
you can get better i'm sure. i did and at the low point i had no hope of living otherwise. the right meds and ongoing therapy helped me. was a good combo. i discovered i had little coping skills and lots of triggers that fed my depression. therapy taught me new ways of coping and having a self awareness i'd never had before. the meds enabled me to reason. so it was a combo of both that helped me.
you might want to post in the depression forum too.

[lxegirl]

i know how you feel.... :/

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by my3sns

depressed is my emotion... i DONT cry , get angry , get hurt , feel happy , feel scared , i dont laugh ... its basically always the same and has been for years... despite many years of therapy and meds ... i just dont know how to feel like most people i guess .... is there really ANY hope

you might want to revisit some of your past posts when you feel like this. they can help you to see that you do have emotions and can feel a wide range of emotions. I found many references to your emotions like fear, anxiety, depressed, feeling like you are stupid (which I do not think of you as stupid), funny, nuts, sad, feeling like you are afraid, like your going to cry, scared, shocked at things your treatment providers have said to you, shakey, spiraling out of control, ashamed, embarrassed, a sense of responsibility, ...

these are all examples of you discribing how you feel emotionally and there are many more postings by you I did not read yet..

so when you get to feeling like you dont ave any emotions go back and read all your own posts here. they will show you, that you are normal and can feel a wide range of feelings..

that said its quite normal for people with PTSD, and depression, and survivors of child sexual abuse and even people who have had their problems with drugs and alcohol to have times when they feel numb/ lack of affect (no feelings) or in your words not having any emotions.

even medications can cause problems with being able to feel emotional things from time to time.

talk with your treatment providers they can adjust your meds if thats whats causing your present bout with lack of affect. they can also teach you ways to be more in tune with your body and things you go through so that you can recognize all these emotions that you do have and feel.

[my3sns]

Ok so i was in a bad place when i wrote this ... and i have talked here before about some emotions .. which all seem to be bad , i guess more than anything i think i could have said that... emotions that i have overwhelm me , because sometimes i have too many at once , and also because im scared to get in touch with myself ... like i need to keep to keep mind and body separate.. i cant allow the body to have emotion, because it may take over , ppl may not like me , i may hurt someones feelings, and with that i would be abandoned, and also i dont know what is expected of me in an emotional storm... like recently i was in T , told T that something was scary , then it became necessary for me to say "no I am scared"... and i immediately lost my control, i started violently shaking seeing this door with like a dark fog around it and i knew it was some sort of damn memory... T may have said something , but if she did i didnt hear her... i just felt like she was probably sitting there staring at me , and deciding my flipping fate ( like omg shes a goner lets call the police and commit her) finally after what felt like forever i said llora i am really trying to get myself together , then maybe 5 min later i said the same thing , then jumped up out of the chair and hit the door...hell i dont even know where i was taking that