Disappearing

I wish I could just disappear right now from reality, I haven't even thought about where i''d go. I just need some of this pressure to lift off of me. On the same hand I know all the hurt I suffered from my mom leaving from my dad walking away I could never do that to my kids but on the same hand they deal with my bi polar they pay a price. It just gets so over whelming. I am so lost.

Hello, Sarah. Does your therapist know how hard things are for you now? Seems your treatment is not working and changes are in order.

Good luck.

Gentle hugs to you ((spacebound)).

The tough times are very tough . Thankfully, they do pass. Sometimes, it takes waaay too long for the rough times to pass. Just keep trying to remind yourself of the good that you are doing. You are doing good things to be proud of!

You haven't left your children to bear the pain ~ pain that you felt as a child, after your mom left. Hopefully, you are also working with a T to get some helpful techniques in working through your thoughts & emotions. If not, please do reach out for some assistance. Maybe a new or up in medication is what you need to make a difference in the dark times.

Best wishes to you!