Needing a hug

Am I annoying?? Am I too clingy?? Am I worthless??
My life is stressing me out really bad right now. We're adopting my little cousins, My parents are fighting like crazy, my dad's side of the family wants nothing to do with us, my brother makes everything worse, and I don't have that many people to talk to right now.
To make it worse, my 'best friend' seems to hate me right now! She has been there for me for a few years now, and she's the only close friend I have left. We were talking about a week ago and I told her about something that happend in my past. A male, that I will hate for the rest of my life, touched me in ways he shouldn't have. I told her this and how it mad me feel. She was the first one I told about it. She has since acted like she hates me. I don't know what I did wrong! I told her something that still hurts me, that I still have trouble with sometimes. She has yet to talk to me for more than ten minutes and keeps telling me that I'm annoying. I asked her to talk to me yesterday and she said that I was annoying her and she hung up the phone!
She is always telling me how bad and flawed I am. It hurts me so much . But I can't say much because I know I've said some very hurtful things to her. It's just she's the first person that I've ever really trusted, and I can't handle it when she's like this.
I feel like it's my fault that she hates me. I'm the one that keeps wanting to talk to her, I'm the one that keeps asking if she cares about me, and I'm the one that has the problems. It's me fault, isn't it??
I just really want to cry right now, but that's a sign of weakness .
Please help me, please........

*hugs*

You're going through a rough time. Lots of stress from many different sources, and even if none of the issues alone seem major, combined they drag you down. I'm experiencing something similar right now. Hang in there. This too shall pass. As for your 'friend', don't bother with her for a little while. If she cares enough to explain why she's upset when she knows you don't get it, she'll make contact and tell you. At the moment she's acting unreasonably, and there's no sense letting her become another stressor - Drop her like a sack of bricks until she gets her head sorted out again.

Find a new hobby, or something amusing to do in your free time that'll take your full attention, so you don't have too much time to think about life.

Here's hoping things get better for you soon. You'll do just fine.

Thank you.
I just wish she would tell me what I did wrong. I guess I should just leave her alone untill she gets back to her normal self. I just really miss talking to her.
I could start writing more, it does help me calm down a little.
Thank you, again.

Go for it. What sort of stuff do you write?

Poems and stories. I'm better at poems.

Hah. I'd say the opposite in my regard. Though lately I've given up both poems and stories in favor of essays, of all things. To think I do this for fun now.... Well, enjoy,
Shelly. So long as you've always got the inspiration - Lost mine some time ago.

Essays for fun? I have yet to write a good essay.
You never lose your inspiration, it's just hard to find at times

((LovesShelley)) - just stopping by to give you a hug. Never let anyone make you feel bad about yourself. Right now your friend isn't being a good friend ATM but its good you trusted to share you story. Did you ever tell an adult what happened to you? It sounds like there's alot of stress going on in your life. Try to take care of yourself and give your friend some space for now. I hope things get better for you. Always remember, you're an important person.

Thank you.
I've never told an adult, I don't want to go through telling it again. I hope things get better, too.
Thank you, lynn.

(((((big hugs)))))))))

Than you