teen in need of advice! please help!

i am a teenager, and my parents are divorced although i am in a slightly strange position, i havent seen my father in about 7 years by my mothers choice of not allowing me to, the first few years i had terrible re occurring nightmares and hallucinations i grew out of them after about 3 years, he sends letters and cards for special occasions but i cant open them, i really want to see him but i have tried asking my mum and its always the same answer, no. I now have a boyfriend of 7months, he is moving to spain in 1month and i have started to have hallucinations and nightmares, im not coping very well at all, i have bad thoughts and i have tried things, i just dont know what to do anymore having to cope with losing two people at once is alot to handle and its hard to think of anything positive, i just dont know what to do:/

Its not a happy time for you. Poor love.
Can you speak to a counsellor at school? A doctor? I think some talk therapy could be useful to you. And also someone to help you figure out your rights when it comes to seeing your dad.

Has your mother ever said why you cannot see your father? Do you know where he is? Is it possible that your mother is trying to protect you because he was violent towards her or he is alcoholic/serious drug addict or maybe even he is in jail? When he sends cards does he put a return address on the envelopes?

First, I'm sorry you're in the middle of this. I know how it hurts.

First, I don't think it is wise of your mother to keep his cards/letters from you. You should be allowed to have them -- all she is doing is causing more hurt and separation anxiety by not letting you have them.

Do you know WHY she won't let you see him? If your father is a DANGER to you, then she's right. BUT - if he's not, she has NO RIGHT to keep you away from your Dad. A father has a legal right to see his child (children) and he SHOULD go to the court and set up regular visits with you!!! Why hasn't he done this? The court would make sure you got to see your Dad -- unless he's a danger to you. Just because your mother doesn't "like" him right now is no reason to keep you away from him.

Now with your boyfriend going away soon, your anxiety is getting even worse -- which is understandable. You need someone to talk to -- even if it's a school counselor. I realize that school is out for the summer, but perhaps you could call the counselor at home to see if he/she would be willing to talk to you.

I wish you the very best. I hope things change for the good & that you're able to see your Dad. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee

dont know your mothers reasons, imo think shes wrong for cutting your father from your life without explaining the reasons. being left in the dark about your father. con front your mother and tell her you want to know about your father. try and find right way to do it, this might help you.