diary I guess

I know nobody here cares about my posts so I guess I'm just going to make this a sort of diary entry.
Well, I messed up again today. Someone said something about my physical appearance that got me down and made me realize, though I think I've always known in the back of my mind that it doesn't matter how nice my makeup is or what I'm wearing, I'm never going to look old enough to be attractive or an adult. The way I feel now is so miserable and ridiculous and ashamed of myself. I wonder if I'll ever stop being this embarrassment to my dad and the people that I encounter daily..I'm pretty sure the answer is no. But I don't know what else to do but go on being unhappy..my CE course starts in two weeks and I'm still planning on going to class even though I can't hope that anything good will come to it and I have no choice but to go on living no matter how much I want to stop because I have no way of ending it.

Hang in there. It sounds like you are pretty young. Having emotional issues, and being young (with the normal self-consciousness) is tough. I remember feeling that way, like I couldn't please anyone and that I wasn't pretty enough. Now that I'm older, I don't really care what other people think. You are more than what others think of you or what you might think they are thinking of you. I often find that I'm wrong about what others are thinking. My mind can skew things.

What did the person say?

I'm too embarrassed to say.