[RunningEagleRuns]

Im 17. I've had schizophrenia for around 3 years. I'm being treated for it. But life is hard. I get suicidal thoughts and feelings all the time. Sometimes I want to throw myself out of a moving car. But I'm not gonna do it cuz I'd go to hell.. I'm a christian, but god burdens me now more than he did when I was healthy. I get angry at him. I know he loves me but it sure doesn't feel like it. It feels like he wants to destroy me. I hear voices too. They hate me and I hate them. They've put me through so much. I used to get voices accusing me coming out of people but that has gotten better. That was a hard time when that was going on.. I hope it never happens again. I also get depressed now and then. Thanks for listening. I may add more later.

[RunningEagleRuns]

Anyone there?

[kindachaotic]

Hello Runningeagleruns, Yes your post has been read, by 33 people, there's a count you can see on right side column.

Really sorry you are struggling. You say you are being treated for it but you're still so miserable. Do you think a med change would help? Do you see a therapist, that would help you process things. Do your parents know your ideations of suicide? If not then they or someone you trust needs to know!
All these thoughts & voices are to be taken seriously.

The teen years can be really tough for someone who has no mental health issues. One would like to think that with the right kind of help your quality of life could be so much better.

You are a well spoken person. Repost this in the schizophrenia forum & I'm sure you'll get more response's. People do care so please keep posting & update, even daily, as to how you're doing/feeling.

Take good care.

[RunningEagleRuns]

Thanks. =]