[dusty9838]

I'm not feeling so good right now...

I take that back, I"m feeling horrible This depression I feel right now feels like it's buried deep in my soul and producing the worst despair. I'm currently at work and I can barely function... I"m almost tempted to just go home but I don't know if I should do that...

I just want my life back together again... I want this pain to end...

it hurts so much

(((((dusty9838)))))

Are you currently seeing a professional that you can discuss your concerns with?

[dusty9838]

Originally Posted by melissa.recovering

(((((dusty9838)))))

Are you currently seeing a professional that you can discuss your concerns with?

No... well not yet.

I have an appointment on the 20th of this month. I was feeling fairly well yesterday for the first time in a long time... but today has been 1 month since she's left me after over 10 years together.

I just want this pain and loneliness to go away so bad..

[lynn P.]

I'm very sorry you're overwhelmed with depression at this moment. Are you on medication and in therapy? Would it be possible for you to put your thoughts on hold so you can work? When I've felt very overwhelmed, I found it helpful to imagine putting my thoughts in a locked box. The locked box means you won't think about the feelings until later. This is good especially when the problem not solvable. You could also imagine in your mind a beautiful relaxing place and do some deep breathing.

It may help you to know....... I know very well what's its like to go through an extreme relationship disappointment. You're grieving right now. Eventually I realized I wasn't going to let anyone destroy my life and this helped me but its a process of healing. I hope it gets better for you.

[roads]

That's bad, it happens like that sometimes. Is it safe for you to stay at work? only you know. But it's better to be in a safe place when a searing depression hits so fast.

If you remain at work, try to take a break & clear your head. Do you have a set of coping skills to use? Deep breathing? Meditation? Breathing is easy. Just sit some fairly open & quiet if possible. Slow your breathing. Envision a favorite place. Or a candle flame. An all-white room or landscape. Explore the vision. Steady your breathing. Sometimes a few minutes of this can help you get back to yourself & stay in the present. Staying in the present--second to second--is a great depression fighter. & no side effects.

If you have a support network, call until you find someone who will be available for you all afternoon. If no one is, keep in touch here.

Roadrunner

[dusty9838]

It just feels so impossible to cope right now... sometimes I feel like I'm really getting a grip on everything and I'll be ok... then this happens and I don't know what to do.

Thanks everyone for listening to my rambles... it's just so hard to deal with right now...

[DenisDonnacha]

I'm sorry for what happened to you dusty, it's definitely not a nice place to be. I hope your visit to the the T helps you.
Sorry I can't provide anything more than words.