[Brokenjewellery]

After going through lots of problems recently.. and due to these problems especially relationship breakup, feeling very depressed sometimes with suicidal thoughts.. i have realised that in the last week or 2 i have been a completely different person, very needy, clingy, boring only ever talking about myself and my problems. not being there for anyone else.. iv also been a bit paranoid.

i feel better now. i feel alot more positive, i want to make this a better year for myself and people around me. but im worried all my misery and neediness has driven people away.

eg: here i am sitting completely alone on new years eve.. for the first time ever. The only person who has wished me a happy new year is my ex.. who phoned me to tell me we shouldnt talk anymore because he loves me and its confusing him. i feel like iv lost the 1 person who cares...
also realised today i didnt recieve 1 xmas card this year...

when im feeling myself im happy, bubbly, and all i think about is everyone else... i never put myself first i always look out for all my friends and family

[kaliope]

i doubt your sad and needy behaviors for a couple weeks have pushed away your real friends. they probably just dont know what to do to help you so are giving you your space. Now that you are feeling better maybe give your friends a call, go out for coffee or whatever it is you normally do to spend time together. your boyfriend sounds really confused and it really isnt fair for him to be calling you to sort out his feelings. that is just really hurtful and disrespectful for you.

I am sorry that you are hurting. keep posting and why not visit the chats when you are feeling down. gvie you somebody to talk to. Hugs

[smmath]

i can relate i am also very clingy and needy, but to my former teacher. i think that we need to find peace in ourselves in order to be less clingy

[MarkWantsHappy]

Originally Posted by Brokenjewellery

After going through lots of problems recently.. and due to these problems especially relationship breakup, feeling very depressed sometimes with suicidal thoughts.. i have realised that in the last week or 2 i have been a completely different person, very needy, clingy, boring only ever talking about myself and my problems. not being there for anyone else.. iv also been a bit paranoid.

Wow, this is exactly how I've been feeling for the last year or so, I'm hoping therapy will help me snap out of it. Finger's crossed.

I hope you pull through it too

Mark.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

((((kaliope))))

What kaliope said

[Brokenjewellery]

Thanks to all of you for taking the time to reply, i guess im just feeling really insecure just now. Im trying to feel better..
Not really sure how to tho... Life can be so confusing sometimes!