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hello, i am 15 and i think im depressed because its hard for me to smile, almost everytime i do its forced. another reason is i cry for no reason sometimes or someone can be joking around and i take it waaaaay to seriously and it makes me want to cry. i havent told anyone in my family that i think im depressed.... i dont really know how. i feel like they wont take me seriously because when im around them i hide it and act like nothings ever wrong. the only person that i told was my best friend, im glad i did because she knows how it feels. im usually the person that listens to other peoples problems and holds mine in. and the one time i talked about mine was to my best friend about being depressed. i have maybe 3 real friends that i tell things to. one of them complains about how everyone goes to her for advice so i dont anymore. the other one we dont really talk about those kinds of emotions. if i didnt have my 3rd one i wouldve already cut or killed myself. i guess in a way she saved my life. i mean i still think about cutting myself and hoping i'll die soon but its waaaaay better now that i have someone to talk to. i think depression runs in my family because my cousin, my mom, and other family members take medication for it. i guess ive had a pretty tough life, but it could be worse. the friend i tell everything to joined this website too and in a way i hope she reads this so she knows how grateful i am to be her friend. well that basically sums up how im feeling today and a lil bit of who i am. thanks to whoever reads this, i really need someone to hear me.

Hi Whittlediva. Welcome to PC!! I'm 15 and depressed too. I don't have an friend outside of PC. So I'm pretty much a loner and I isolate myself a lot. If it wasn't for PC, I probably would of started hurting myself too. Having someone to talk and relate to makes the depression a little better. Any way, I'm always here if you need someone to hear you.

Hey I love you so much. I honestly don't know where I'd be without you today. You're the only person who knows I'm depressed, too. I have to be honest, I was thinking about taking my life away today..I was sitting at the table when suddenly, I had a huge urge to just die. I was gonna do it, but then I realized, I couldn't do it..I couldn't leave you alone. You're the only person who really understands what I'm going through. I'm gonna help you through this no doubt I would honestly do absolutely anything for you and I hope you know that..You're seriously like a sister to me and if it weren't for you, I think I would've died today..I am unbelievably thankful to have you in my life and I swear, if there's anything you ever need, let me know

thanks skyscraper, its nice to know im not the only one thats young and depressed