My mind is on overload & I can't stop thinking. I feel as though I'm suffocating. I wish I had someone to talk to, but I don't. I wish I could fall asleep, but still waiting on this melatonin to kick in. Thinking about taking another pill, but don't wanna make myself feel anymore sick than I already feel. I feel like such a bother & no one has time for me. Everybody that I use to could go to is too busy to check on me. No one cares about me...why should they? I'm a waste of space & a waste of life. I'm ungrateful & negative. I'm a nobody & wish I could disappear. Someone else deserves this life that I can't seem to appreciate. Guess I'll lay here...while these thoughts swallow me whole.

[mazing]

I'm sorry you feel that way I don't know what to say except I am thinking of you. And you are not a bother or waste of space - everyone is worthy of life. There are people here who care.

I know that you don't know me and I can't be there in person but if you ever need someone to listen please always feel free to contact me. I won't always have the answers but I can always listen.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Originally Posted by SoFragile88

Everybody that I use to could go to is too busy to check on me.

Billi: I know; that can be hard.

No one cares about me...why should they?

Billi: I am glad you talked to us. We care.

I'm a waste of space & a waste of life. I'm ungrateful & negative. I'm a nobody & wish I could disappear.

Billi: No one is a waste of space. I am so sorry you feel this way.

Someone else deserves this life that I can't seem to appreciate. Guess I'll lay here...while these thoughts swallow me whole.

Billi: We all deserve to live. Life can be so hard and painful that it really can feel like the end. I have felt this way too. Even now I struggle to shut out old tapes in my head that tell me to end myself. So sorry you feel this way.

I hope you feel better.

Hold on.

Billi

[shezbut]

((((SoFragile88))))

I wish that I could help you feel better honey! I understand how you're feeling very well, and it is miserable. Just keep holding on.

Believe me, I do think of you often, and wish that I had the magic words to help you feel better. I often kick myself for not saying anything especially helpful. I just want you to believe that there are people in this world that honestly do care about you. Perhaps that knowledge will give you a teensy bit of hope and camraderie (sp?), leading to more enjoyment in your life.

@Shezbut those words were perfect & any encouragement you give is always helpful.

I thank all of you for responding & showing that you care. Today is a rough day for me. It's my granny's Bday & she's been gone for almost 4 years. I miss her dearly & just have the hardest time remembering the good times with her since her last month was so stressful.

[Kentarou Kawasaki]

If it makes you feel less lonely I feel the exact same way... ):