[Dreamy01]

I don't have an eating disorder but when I'm having a bad time emotionally I find it comforting not to eat. I enjoy the hunger and not feeding it. It's different to the feeling I get when I physically CAN'T eat. My body is hungry but I won't feed it. It is sort of reassuring.

When I'm stable I eat okay and have a healthy appetite.

Is anyone else the same or know why it is?

[Leed]

Are you SURE you don't have an eating disorder? It almost sounds like you're punishing yourself for being depressed or emotionally upset. I can't see how hunger can be "reassuring." Hunger depicts a basic NEED of the body, and when you deprive your body of one of it's needs, there IS definitely a problem.

Just to be careful, please discuss this with your doctor. You could be on the brink of anorexia. That is a life-threatening disease --- and we wouldn't want to lose you. It's not something to just push to the side.

I wish you the very best -- God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

[shezbut]

Sounds like depression to me.

I do the very same thing when I'm battling severe depression. I can feel hunger, but don't have the will to get up and eat. Part of me kind of gets a thrill out of depriving myself from this necessity.

I haven't ever been diagnosed with an eating disorder, but my weight has always been below normal - bottom normal.

I 2nd what shezbut has said except for being below normal weight. In addition I've always had a low appetite & when I get severely depressed I don't allow myself to eat or when I get very upset I tend to make myself go to bed without eating. I don't think it's linked to an eating disorder, but it really does sound like you are very depressed.

Do you have a good support system? Someone you can reach out to for help in times like this?

[Dreamy01]

Thanks for the replies. I definitely don't have an eating disorder - I usually eat quite normally and healthily. I have other health concerns so I wouldn't want to stop eating and make myself worse.

It's just that when I feel bad it all goes to pot. It's as if I don't care, I want to make myself suffer. I'm relatively thin for my height but this is connected to other health issues. I have lost weight this week, but not drastically.

I don't really have a good support system unfortunately I'm very isolated and I don't have much family or see a lot of friends. I have a good T though and she has been great lately.

Hopefully I'll get through this patch. I'm guessing the not eating is most likely connected to depression and feeling bad about myself then. Thanks for writing supportive replies.

Well I'm glad you have a good T & that you also found PC...as you can see you find great support here. Hang in there...you'll pull through just fine. Pm me anytime, Take care 8)

[happiedasiy]

I was just wondering if you are not eating because of XYZ issues during the daytime,
Do you have more energy/appetite in the evening?

[hamster-bamster]

I cannot chew when I decompensate and am ueber-anxious. I can drink and during my last decompensation I actually added weight due to all the milk and juice I drank - they are high calorie foods. It took me a month to lose that weight.

[Perna]

You may have/not have an eating disorder now but you are flirting with giving yourself one with your behavior:

http://www.webmd.com/depression/feat...ting-disorders

[Dreamy01]

Thanks. I'm okay fortunately. It only seems to happen when I'm massively stressed or angry. I have ongoing health issues (nothing food related) so it really isn't in my best interests to develop an eating disorder if I want to suvive. Normally my survival instinct is well intact but sometimes I go into self destructive mode and it unsticks, which seems to cause the problem with food.