[PeterChronicles]

I've posted this matter in the "Ask a Therapist" section, I would really, really, appreciate some advice.

There's only few (2) close people who know about my "apparent" condition, and the reason I do not wish to speak about this with them is because I quite doubt they could help me on this one. The emotions I fabricated to live my life without so many complications never gave me any trouble, but as of recently I'm having "anger" issues, sudden rage bursts that due to my lack of concern for mostly anything are beginning to sound like problem. What are these bursts? How can I learn to control them for my benefit?

[IceCreamKid]

It sounds to me like there is a connection between your fabrications and your rage. If you started being yourself, do you think your rage would lessen?

[PeterChronicles]

Originally Posted by IceCreamKid

It sounds to me like there is a connection between your fabrications and your rage. If you started being yourself, do you think your rage would lessen?

I would think so, yes. I'm not so sure if trying to be myself is actually a very bright idea, I think some of the people would probably hate me, and I tend to get along really well in any social environment. I even worked in my lack of facial expression for many years now cause people used to think there was something wrong with me. Yours is probably the most direct way, and it's not a bad way, I just don't think it's the best one for me right now, I would use it in a worst case scenario tho. And thanks.

[Perna]

You can't really be anyone other than yourself. That's why the rage has popped up. Until we get to know and like ourselves, it's like playing "whack-a-mole" with something always popping up somewhere else. Even if you could "do" something with the rage, either it would grow and explode even worse or some other emotion would surface. The more round-about one gets, the more complicated one's life will get because the "original"/real problem will get trampled by the fake and the multitude of muddy footprints will make it that much harder to figure out the situation.

[IceCreamKid]

Originally Posted by PeterChronicles

I would think so, yes. I'm not so sure if trying to be myself is actually a very bright idea, I think some of the people would probably hate me, and I tend to get along really well in any social environment. I even worked in my lack of facial expression for many years now cause people used to think there was something wrong with me. Yours is probably the most direct way, and it's not a bad way, I just don't think it's the best one for me right now, I would use it in a worst case scenario tho. And thanks.

Some people will dislike you regardless of what you say, do, think, look like, etc. forever til the end of time. It's the way people are. You can't control other people and their reactions. But you can help yourself. I was thinking not of others but of you when I suggested that you relieve some of the pressure on yourself by being real in your emotions. I saw the 'worst case scenario' as your present life. You'll want to be careful about using expressions like "[not a] very bright idea" when people offer you ideas because it comes off as being arrogant and disparaging and I'm sure you didn't mean to be arrogant and disparaging to me. I wish you the best.

[likewater]

What is ASPD?

[PeterChronicles]

Originally Posted by IceCreamKid

Some people will dislike you regardless of what you say, do, think, look like, etc. forever til the end of time. It's the way people are. You can't control other people and their reactions. But you can help yourself. I was thinking not of others but of you when I suggested that you relieve some of the pressure on yourself by being real in your emotions. I saw the 'worst case scenario' as your present life. You'll want to be careful about using expressions like "[not a] very bright idea" when people offer you ideas because it comes off as being arrogant and disparaging and I'm sure you didn't mean to be arrogant and disparaging to me. I wish you the best.

I'm sorry if I didn't came as clear as I would have expected to be, but I was being arrogant, I am most of the time. Still... although I like vainglory, and I see myself above others this was not the time or the place to express myself like that, seeing that I was looking for ideas. Please do not take that as an apology but as a "You're most likely not wrong at all", otherwise I would feel insulted.

Regardless of everything I took your advice and the one before that, since they are in essence one in the same. Yet I've been doing it at my own pace.

I told some more of my friends about my disorder, and it was a delight as they were more comprehensive than I would have expected. The bursts have lowered to the point that I can "feel" the void inside me, which is very pleasant. I'm still dealing with entertainment issues, but That I can manage, temporary entertainment keeps me from looking into things that I would enjoy the most. Worry not for I've never succumbed into sadism, it is a pitiful thing to gaze upon.

Having said this, I think a "Thanks" is really worthy of being said, so Thanks to you two.

[PeterChronicles]

Originally Posted by likewater

What is ASPD?

ASPD Would be Antisocial Personality Disorder, but if you ask me I think it's a more delicate way to call someone a Sociopath or Psychopath.

[IceCreamKid]

I don't think these threads hinting that if people don't treat you the way you want, you'll harm them are funny or therapeutic.

[thetherapists]

I think it's talking to some one close to you will still be the best idea of overcoming such problem.... you might get the most valuable advice from someone who really knows and cared for you

[PeterChronicles]

Originally Posted by IceCreamKid

I don't think these threads hinting that if people don't treat you the way you want, you'll harm them are funny or therapeutic.

I'm sorry if I'm not perceptive enough today, but I didn't quite understand what you were trying to say. I also noticed that your mood is set to depressed, would like to be sorry about that, care to elaborate?

[-jimi-]

People think we start with a basic set of emotions, like happiness, sadness, fear, anger..... I don't think that is true. I think that comes as the brain develops. I think those feelings develop from more primal emotions, like a sense of something being wrong, feeling threatened, etc. I think rage is a less developed emotion, so if you start feeling things, you probably start from the start.

You could try to separate in your mind, the parts of rage. What is the threat part, the anger part.. a fear part? Rage is very interesting that way. I don't think you can actually "use" rage, I don't even think you can use it to do bad things, because rage controls you, you don't control rage. But certainly it is a feeling worth looking into.