[Sweetheart.J]

Ok some things are serious but I get angry over nothing... I mean after it's all said and done I think to myself "why the hell did I react like that.. over nothing" It's never worth it. I get mad, I throw things, I break things, I do self destructive things and I dont even really know why. Sometimes I even tell myself to stop as it's happening and just take a few breaths but I cant, once I'm in a rage I just keep going. I think it might have to do with a whole lot of things I keep to myself for so long eventually it just all comes out the same way.. rage..

I think underneath it all I'm just really sad and I need a hug from someone I care about or a friend or whoever it is I happen to take things out on..

I always end up apologizing after but I dont wanna live my life constantly apologizing for my wreckless actions... why can't I just get it right?? I know better. I need to do better.

[Leed]

I imagine it has something to do with your childhood -- did you have it rough growiing up? Were you subject to abuse or neglect? Many of us who had rotten childhoods bring our baggage into adulthood, and then our emotions and behavior many times are dictated by that! Sometimes it all comes to a head, and manifests itself in rage!

I think it would be a good idea to talk to a therapist and try to find out where this comes from. I think you'll find your answer somewhere in your past. It can be painful, but when you get past that, you'll feel much better. You can put it to rest, and get on with things. God bless and please take care. Let us know how things go. Hugs, Lee

[eskielover]

I know when I lived with my husband, we were always fighting......from the beginning of the marriage......it built up over 33 years until my anger would be like a flash fire & I would end up seeing red, I would throw & break things that I really didn't want to break.

The interesting thing was that I left my husband 5 years ago.....best thing I ever could have done for myself. He was definitely the source of my anger.....because being away from him, even though I still have to deal with him at times because of financial issues, we were unable to get divorced........I have been able to calm down so much along with a few other wonderful changes that have come into my life through my growing relationship with God, it's made all the difference in my life.

It takes me forever to get angry....just like I was before I got married. When I first left, it took me awhile to calm down & I would jump on people when I felt wronged.....but it took a couple of years to calm myself down.......but I could see the imporvements constantly.

There has to be something from your past or your current living situation that is causing your anger......that is what needs to be addressed because anger doesn't JUST HAPPEN.

Maybe your T can help you chain your anger expressions back to something in your past. The important thing however is that when you sense your anger coming on, you need to take action against your reaction & distract yourself to take your mind away from what is causing the anger, even if you have to walk away & go take a walk around the block (better than counting to 10 IMO).

Wishing you the best with this.....I know how bad it feels to hold onto anger.

[Sweetheart.J]

I did grow up in a very unstable, hectic and violent environment.. alot of things I have worked through and accepted my life for what it is or was. Some things I have let go and moved on but I guess I still carry some of it with me...