[MyFathersGirl]

How have you guys dealt with guilt? I am trying to find a counselor that I can afford but I was wondering if anybody has tips for dealing it in the meantime.

I have been realizing that something my sister and I did as kids wasn't appropriate sexually even though we didn't actually touch each other in that way. I was 11 and my sister was 8. I told her let's pretend that one of us is a doctor and comes in says "I'm going to rape you". We would take turns with both roles. The person who was the doctor would lay on top of the other one and hold their hands back. It was bad enough that I was thinking like something like that as an 11 year old but an 8 year old was even worse. I took an issue that wasn't appropriate and passed it along to a younger child. My sister saw something that I wrote for a psychologist when I was first applying for disability and she says it never happened so at least she doesn't remember it but the fact remains that i know what happened and looking back that it was wrong.

[Odee]

I don't think there is anything to feel guilty about for roleplaying a sexual scenario when you were younger, even a rape one, considering that there was no real sexual feelings or molestation involved.

I think a lot of us have stories of some embarrassingly 'dark' things we thought and did as children. You grew up in a world surrounded by portrayal of sex. There is no way to keep little kids from knowing about it! Roleplaying sex as a little kid isn't twisted, it's part of understanding your world.

I think your sister is A-OK and I don't think you should feel guilty about it.

[Leed]

I agree with Odie. It's time to put that to rest. Your sister is fine, and nothing really happened.

The important thing is that God forgave you WHEN it happened, so if HE forgave you, why can't YOU forgive yourself? It's over and done with, everyone is ok -- so bury it and don't EVER dig it back up again. Forgive yourself and move on.

God bless you and take care. Big Hugs, Lee