[pestiuca]

The mind works in peculiar ways. I was never able to understand mine, yet I figured there's no need to understand it. It's just is the way it is and I have to accept it. I am highly sensitive to emotions. To me happy moments can be 10 times more enjoyable than to normal people and unhappy moments can feel 10 times worse than normally.

There's a very strong link between my mind and my body. A few years ago something made me so angry that I instantly became myopic at both eyes. Things like this happen and I have gotten used to them. I have accepted them as the cost for being able to live happy moments at incredible heights.

Yet what I have been going through the past days is indescribable and I hope no one reaches this point. My emotions are triggered by very peculiar stimulus so don't expect any of the following to make much sense. Few days ago I met this beautiful person with whom I got the chance to talk. I came to hear his incredible life story which literally shattered me and made me split into pieces. What the story was about isn't of any importance. What shocked me was the fact that he was willing to share such a profound, personal story with someone he had just met. To most of you this would mean nothing. Thinking about it in a rational way it doesn't mean anything to me either.

Yet since then I have severe nausea, fever and I haven't been eating or sleeping for 3 days. Getting out of bed is harder and harder. I feel like drowning in my own mind. Every second is as heavy as rock. I just want to know if there's anyone who had something like this before and if there's any way to get back to normal. Pills, treatment, tea, relaxation exercises, maybe words, anything what might help. :-)

Thank you,
Warna

[Leed]

Hi ~ While I realize how sensitive you are, I HIGHLY doubt that your fever could be caused by what happened! Fevers are caused by viruses and/or a bacteria infections. I urge you to see your doctor to determine what is going on! If, after 3 days, you aren't feeling better you really need to see your doctor! You will become dehydrated soon since you have severe nausea!! PLEASE go in and see him SOON -- it's very important, or you could be in serious trouble!!!

Please let us know how you come out, ok? God bless. Hugs, Lee

[Wants2Fly]

What Leed said.

BTW, there is a book about highly-sensitive people -- I think that phrase is part of the title -- that helped me to understand myself better.

[pestiuca]

@Leed Thank you for your concern. After two more days everything gradually got back the normal. At least what I usually call "normal". :-) Seeing a doctor wouldn't have helped, I know it from my past experiences. There's no point in seeing a doctor when there's no high body temperature indicating fever, no infections causing you nausea and basically no biological trigger behind the symptoms.

@Wants2Fly What's the name of the book?

[bohogypsy]

I am guessing the book being referred to is 'The highly sensitive person by Elaine N. Aron'. I have it myself because I too am 'highly' sensitive. I did quite a bit of reading on sensitivity issues in the past. I guess from a spiritual perspective you could view what you are doing as empathising. You are absorbing another persons stuff and your body is trying to process and purge those issues for that other person. You're trying to help them out.

A good way to check if it is your stuff or someone else's stuff that is affecting you is to ask yourself questions. Is this my stuff? Is this someone else's stuff? Is this something else's stuff? you'll be able to feel a difference when you ask each question (you'll feel heavier or lighter). If it is your stuff you need to dig deeper and examine it and if it's the latter two you need to learn how to let it go/detach. Not be such a sponge. There is always a motivation behind our actions. It might not feel like it, but when you do take on someone else's stuff it is with consent... some part of you is choosing to take it on board for whatever reason e.g. it could be the need to alleviate someone else's pain or other co-dependence related issues...what I am saying is that there is reason why it affects you so when it doesn't have to. You can choose something different and you don't have to be 'stuck' with it.

[Perna]

Judith Orloff is a psychiatrist that works with highly sensitive people; I have enjoyed her books and articles in the past.

http://www.drjudithorloff.com/Press-...ive_Person.htm

[ktbelle373]

Im so sorry for all that your going through. Have you ever thought that you might have bipolar disorder? Im bipolar and i relate to the highs and lows your talking about. Do you have a phycatrist???maybe going to one would help. Hang in there, take it one day at a time. i care about you, i wish you all the best

[sundaymorning]

I had some issues hearing a girl inside my head. It was never diagnose but she was draining me and putting me down. Therapists was treating me as if the girl inside my head was more important than me, then one day my friend said this:

"you are stronger than her because she's imaginary and you're real."

It was a turning point for me, so I'll put it out there and maybe you can find something helpful in this.