[daisyxxchain]

I just feel like everything is falling apart. I absolutly can not function in life at all. I cant make friends, I am angry at everyone. I hate everyone. I am so antisocial right now its like every single person i come into contact with is the most annoying SOB that walks the earth. I think ive been screwed over by so many aholes in my life and its just coming out right now all my frustration with all my loser ex boyfriends with psycho problems and those that didnt appreciate me or all the things i did for them and now there sitting in jail where they belong it makes me happy but why am i still angry? I mean I miss him but I hate him at the same time what is wrong with me? I feel so bipolar right now and I probably am, I just dont know how to get out of this mood im in and I really need someone to talk to right now bc I feel i may be going a little insane. I am just so tired of taking peoples **** and im not going to take it anymore I am going to tell people what i really think about them from now on. Im not going to just laugh at someones idiotic joke that is more rude than funny half the time i cant STAND PEOPLE!!!! I am also coming off of about 8 months of steady dose of methadone and suboxone and maybe my brain is taking a while to get used to it i dont know. I have been blocking out everyone for so long and now that i actually have to deal with people, its like so hard. But anyways I am rambling really bad because I am just SO tired of everything im tired of sleeping all the time and having no motivation to do anything at all and constanly thinking about HIM and what we had when we had **** and i am so much better off without him then WHY THE HELL can i not stop thinking about him? whats up with that? like seriously!?

[Leed]

Hi Daisy ~ I have felt EXACTLY like you feel right now. And the fact that you're coming off Methadone doesn't help.

I know the feeling of hating EVERYONE and wanting to just punch someone in the face if they get anywhere NEAR you! I've been there more than once. I don't know what it is, but I think everyone has been there at one time or another. It's a HORRIBLE feeling -- but the good thing is it doesn't last very long, thank God!

Just ride it out. Try to do something to distract yourself -- or watch TV or eat something sweet. But ride it out. It won't last. Tomorrow I always guarantee you'll feel better.

Take care & God bless. Hugs, Lee

[AmbivalentAnomaly]

Hello, Daisy!

I can understand how you feel. Sometimes I feel the mundane things in life consume me or that just life itself isn't exciting. I get "blah" and feel like I don't "feel" anything or sometimes feel everything at once.

One thing I've tried, as a distraction, is to hold ice cubes in my hand. I know that sounds corny, but it really works. I also try to find an outlet for myself...drawing, painting, writing... something creative helps or something with physical exertion --biking, walking, swimming. If you are feeling angry---blowing up balloons and popping them help. I learned all this in therapy.

Either way, try to remember what made you happy BEFORE the events that are currently occurring....even childhood stuff. I LOVED finger painting as a child. I also liked watching Garfield and Friends. I know both sound corny too, but watching one cartoon and doing a little finger painting actually brought back good feelings from those times and helped me to feel "whole" again. It is a matter of what YOU like to do.

I am sorry if all this sounds cliche, but I have been there. I admire your determination for getting off Methadone and also reaching out to the community here.

I hope this helps.

HUGS!