[Iamforeveralone]

Everyday seems to be going slower and slower. It's all blurring together. I can't seem to feel the same way I used too. I don't know why, but I feel as though everything is my fault. For example; Today, I walked to meet my friends at an old store that is close to my house, she had to leave not soon after I got there and needed directions on how to get home. I told her how to get there but she soon got lost. Even though she didn't say it, I know she felt it was my fault.
I push myself harder than I should. At school, even making a B makes me feel like I'm a disappointment to my family, teachers, myself.. I don't know how to cope with the feelings I've been having. And I really have no clue as to how to cope with the suicidal tendencies I've been having for a while now. I don't feel like I can't talk to anyone, not that I want too.. people just confuse and upset me, not my mother, my father, my teachers, and I haven't even thought of a counselor .
so.. yeah.

[Jan1212]

It shouldn't be your fault.. at all. She should have gotten a map - or listened better!

If you got a B or an A++++ It wouldn't show on your high-school graduation diploma. But still, don't beat yourself over it, at the same time don't lose motivation. Not that I'm telling you to quit studying just don't make it a huge deal

Your school, middle or high school, would provide you a counselor, and going on here is a helpful step

[Leed]

My friend, things that OTHER people do is NOT your fault! If someone cannot follow directions, then too bad for them!! But it's NOT your fault! And if you get a B for a grade, that's GREAT! It shows you tried VERY hard, and a B is an excellent grade -- how could you be a disappointment to ANYONE??? Dont your parents give you kudos for that? If not, they should! I ALWAYS showed my kids that I was proud of them if they got a B on their report card or on tests, etc.

As for the feelings you've been having, you SHOULD talk to your counselor at school. They keep things private, unless they think things are serious enough that you're a danger to yourself or to others. If they think that you're in imminent danger to yourself, they MIGHT call your parents and talk to them. But anyone else, they wouldn't talk to. So PLEASE talk to your counselor, ok? You really do need someone to talk to -- to unload some of these feelings on, and to get some advice. Ok? God bless and you can message me any time if you'd like to. Big hugs, Lee