[sadkitty22]

I often feel like my life is of no value, and I was just put here as a burden to others, and for others to use me, and for me to suffer, There is no end to my problems, and if in a few years they are not better, and I don't have a job or license or more friends, i will just end it all. Why keep trying for things or happiness that will never come? Why try when I could simply end it? The unhappiness will never end... I simply cannot cope..Even after being in sheppard pratt... I just don't know what to do any more....

[Leed]

Dearest Sadkilly ~ You WERE put here for a reason. God put you here, and He knew WHY He put you here. It is just up to you to find the reason. We ALL have a reason for being here. And God does NOT make junk. You are a beautiful human being -- a wonderful person, who is kind and giiving and loving. You will NEVER be a burden to others, as that's not what others see you as. They see you as a gift -- a precious friend. Never think of yourself as useless, or worthless because that's the furthest from the truth!!

As for suicide -- that is a permanent solution to a temporary problem! Things are always going to be this way! Things always change, and if they're rotten now, they HAVE to get better!!! And they WILL get better. All of us are struggling now -- the whole nation is struggling. The economy is bad, and that makes everyone struggle financially. We poor people only get poorer, the middle class gets a little less "middle" and the rich always get richer. But things HAVE to improve or this country will fail, and never in the history of the U.S. have we failed -- so it's GOT to get better!! And it WILL.

Don't despair, Sadkitty -- please don't. So many feel the same way, and if all of us did the same thing (i.e. suicide) we'd have a mass S.I. and half the country would be gone. Hold and and KEEP YOUR FAITH. Stay strong, and stay here with us. We're here for you. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

[RunningEagleRuns]

I know how you feel. Keep going. Find strength to go on. I find it helps to find a reason to keep living. My reason to keep going is to go to heaven. Good luck! Tell someone how you feel.

[ryuken]

I am not religious so I can't give your my view from that perspective.

Here's How I tackle this personally. Out mind is like a big moody, sensitive computer. It needs new problem everyday and you have to feed it or else it gets into same routine and tries to quit everything. Try to keep it busy by giving it some simple problems. For example, If you're bothered with family problems, get into some social cause and try to solve problems of people who are facing much worst than yours. Something like helping disable people during weekend etc. Or say supporting free software, censorshipless internet. Just take up a cause and keep your mind busy, away from the set of problems that are bugging you. Tell your mind that, I see you are bored, you'll find these problems interesting. That's always work for me.

I hope you will be just fine. Just keep yourself engaged in something pleasing and fun.

[Bill3]

I'm really sorry that you are hurting so bad. Would you be willing to tell a little more about your background and your experience with therapy?

Originally Posted by Bill3

I'm really sorry that you are hurting so bad. Would you be willing to tell a little more about your background and your experience with therapy?

bill's right, it would help if we knew more... of course don't post if you don't feel ready, but it would be nice to know a bit about why you've come to feeling this way

[unstablemind8]

Hang in there. You should try a religion...it brings happiness to many people. It helps to have hope. You should try seeking therapy if you don't already. It's ok, life gets better. My mom went through that years ago. SEEK HELP!!!!

[Taptaptaptile]

You're special. All life is special and has value

I'm sorry you are in such pain that must feel awful.

Excuse my ignorance, what is sheppard Pratt?

I have to believe that life can and does get better but we need to find our own reasons, even if they seem trivial.

[0w6c379]

Originally Posted by sadkitty22

I often feel like my life is of no value, and I was just put here as a burden to others, and for others to use me, and for me to suffer, There is no end to my problems,...

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I am so sorry for you. I have also felt totally worthless, without reason to go on. I have no family of my own and it's too late to start now. I have pain and physical problems and have had my fill of doctors who are of no help. I'm disgusted with a friend I've trusted for years. I am lucky to have a job but I hate some of the people I work with. I don't feel loved and I need to be loved so bad. But today I will go on, because as crazy as it sounds, I have a little hope. I have some hope that maybe things will change for me in a few months or in a few years if I just hang on. Maybe, you never know. I also found a T that I like and I'm hoping he can help me. He has already helped me with one problem (it took about 1 yr of therapy for that). It is so good to share my troubles with my T because he wants to help me, he is there for me. There are no quick fixes. Everything takes time. Please try to hold on because YOUR life could turn out to be wonderful. Maybe you could try therapy? There may be some groups you could meet with that address some of your problems. You say you feel like a burden to others, but that means someone is out there caring for you, no? You are leaning on someone and they think you are worth something. This is a bad time for you but you can get through it...just hold on...

Originally Posted by Michelle25

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I am so sorry for you. I have also felt totally worthless, without reason to go on. I have no family of my own and it's too late to start now. I have pain and physical problems and have had my fill of doctors who are of no help. I'm disgusted with a friend I've trusted for years. I am lucky to have a job but I hate some of the people I work with. I don't feel loved and I need to be loved so bad. But today I will go on, because as crazy as it sounds, I have a little hope. I have some hope that maybe things will change for me in a few months or in a few years if I just hang on. Maybe, you never know. I also found a T that I like and I'm hoping he can help me. He has already helped me with one problem (it took about 1 yr of therapy for that). It is so good to share my troubles with my T because he wants to help me, he is there for me. There are no quick fixes. Everything takes time. Please try to hold on because YOUR life could turn out to be wonderful. Maybe you could try therapy? There may be some groups you could meet with that address some of your problems. You say you feel like a burden to others, but that means someone is out there caring for you, no? You are leaning on someone and they think you are worth something. This is a bad time for you but you can get through it...just hold on...

I can totally relate. Right now and lately (again), the "little" thing I am here for is Kitteh - and the responsibility and promise I made to him when I rescued/adopted him. If I didn't have him, at this point, it would be a whole different story.

I, too, am living on that similar teeny weeny itzy bitzy bead of hope that lives inside of me - been there ever since I can remember. I have no idea why it keeps hanging on / it's like a stick-on or extra little piece of (internal) something .... or something ...

... there are have been a million and one reasons/happenings in my lifetime why I should not be here. And I am pitiful in that I keep thinking "maybe tomorrow will be better". (my father used to make fun of me and say I am a hopeless romantic).

I am in my 40s now...I still had hope until recently. Especially today.

It generally doesn't get better; although, I am just better able to tolerate what goes on.

Today is not one of those days, though I just want you to know that I understand what you are saying. I don't get it, but I understand.

And you are NOT alone.

[dugan123]

Dear dear sadkitty

Hang on!! Things always change and hopefully for the better. Change is one constant. I believe n a God whose love is boundless and unfathomable and he loves u too! I understand how u feel somewhat. I too had suicidal thoughts yesterday and today. I don't know why I do it but I do. Look for the crumbs. Sometimes I have to search for the positive too!!