[dugan123]

Sometimes it seems like being dead would bring so much peace! But I have a good life!! Ive got a good job although it can b stressful but ive got good hours, good pay and my boss seems to like me. I'm married to the most wonderful man n the world who also has a good job and a nice family! Yet I entertain thoughts of suicide!

I was at work Wednesday and thought if I cant get so and so project done I can kill myself or if I get caught screwing up I can kill myself. Where n the he** does that come from??!!! I haven't even been depressed but I got depressed after those thoughts but the depression didn't last long. I don't feel depressed now! I don't understand why I think like that. Nothing and I repeat nothing is worth killing yourself over! There r so many alternatives to suicide, so many other options. Even if I had intentionally done something horrible I wouldn't have to kill myself.

As a little girl of 8 or 10 yrs old I saw my mom try to overdose and commit suicide. She tried it a couple other times. I know this is where I learned it. But why does it have to keep coming back to my thoughts? I don't understand myself!!

Does anybody else do this? What r ur thoughts?

hugs to you.

i'm really not sure why you are feeling like this but i hope it passes

[dugan123]

Thank u shattered!! Haven't had the thoughts n a couple days but had them today while I was with my sister. Its almost like I cant control them! I do feel somewhat sad right now!

[staystrong246]

Nothings wrong with you but I would see a doctor or professinal phyciatrist to see if seeing your mom doing those things could be triggering those thoughts

[Mindinpieces]

Hi, please bear in mind I am just a confused and wondering person who has no clue themselves, about much. So with my reply and thoughts keep that in mind because this may be no help to you and I am sorry if this triggers you or anything like that.

You say that your death would bring “peace” peace of what though? who for, you? or the other people in your life?. I think that maybe you need to look deeper at that thought of yours to understand why you may be feeling in such a way or where these thoughts are steaming from. However I am no expert here just another lost person, so only you can really know what may be of use to yourself or what may be best to just disregard, as looking into such thoughts can cause much more harm than good, sometimes, as it can be painful and hurt to work through some underlining thoughts and feelings bring them to the surface.

Personally yes there have been times where I will find a reason to make something justifiable or ok in a sense. Like you I will tell myself in those certain set of circumstances this or that is ok to do, even though in reality it is a very bad thing to do. I think because this is to do with something others may shun or have such strong opinions about you feel then need to justify the thoughts and feelings. In a sense of if someone found out then it wouldn’t be so bad because of this or that makes it alright, maybe this is what you are doing. Not necessarily entertaining the thoughts themselves but more entertaining the thoughts existence in your life by finding a way or mean to fit them in, if you can understand me on my last thought.

I am sorry if I was no help to you. I hope you well and I wish you all the best MIP

[kittycat97]

Everyone here has lives better than people in less developed countries. But we can't help it when we feel suicidal. I have also attempted suicide a few times. Everyone is telling us to be grateful of what we have, and how lucky we are but still sometimes we can't help but feel depressed. other people will take that we are wallowing in self pity whatsoever. Other people also think that suicide is a selfish act but who will understand that we don't really wish to commit suicide too if we have a choice. Us, suicidal people see suicide as a form of helping, so that we won't continue to be a burden and waste everyone's time. again, nobody can truly understand as unless they have been in the desperate situation we are in.