What am I suppose to do with my feelings?

There is still one part of therapy that I haven't yet learned to emotionally understand and how to practice in my life.

What am I suppose to do with my feelings?

I understand every part of my life. I can write hundreds of pages in my journal. I can express my emotions. I understand it all on a intellectual level but emotionally I still haven't overcome all that has happened in my life. I can track my choices and behaviors of where it comes from and possibly why I do them. Still on a emotional level I still have such a hard time really feeling my emotions.

So to help me cope with my painful past of abuse, my therapist told me I need to now work on actually "feeling" my emotions. No longer do I need to block the pain, numb myself from the hurt, shut myself down so that I can move on in life to survive.

What does that mean? I need to sit with myself and feel every aching emotions as it run through my veins? It is such a abstract concept to understand.

All my life my emotions have been denied to me. The only the choice I had is to endure so I can survive. So now at the age of 30 years old I am barely learning how to feel my emotions when all these life skills should have happened from the moment I was born.

Let yourself feel the feelings, and let them go when other feelings strike. Think of it as standing in a creek. The water is going by you. Some areas of the water stay longer ~ other areas move by quickly. You can't make the water stay.

Well, you could take cups and hold onto the water....or put up a dam, but that water is going to keep coming. The best thing for nature is when we let it be. When humans screw with nature, we mess a lot of things up (even though we didn't mean to). The best thing for humanity and nature is when we work with what nature throws at us and continue to move on in our lives.

(((Jenn1fer)))

I am having the same issues coming up in my sessions. It feels like an impassable block to me. Have you spoken with your therapist about your confusion regarding this abstract concept? He/she should be able to walk you through it. Good luck with this!