Finding a Baseline Emotion

It's easier read than done...

I am a very moody person. Especially during women's week, I will change up on a person so fast they are speechless. I'm a very short fuse person. I can be so happy and then...

Just one little thing will set me off. Now, when I get set off I am not always mad. Something would set me off to be sad. Other things would set me off to feel nonchalant. There are even occasions where things would set me off to be very happy (in moments in which people should not be happy).

I'm trying to learn to be content. No matter of being happy or sad, I am trying to have a baseline emotion of being content. I have to learn what that means. I know now it does not mean smiling all the time but I am sure it does not mean going into a sad or mad mode.

Hopefully, I will learn more and better help myself.

I am dealing with the same issues as you. I just take it one day at a time. I'm introducing new ways for me to be a much more calm person. I'm beginning to see my triggers and not react on them emotionally, but rationally.

It's hard- especially, if you are looking through the lense of depression. When I'm low, I tend to think my baseline is a lot more excitable than it is. I'm really pretty peaceful, but I always remember the excitement...

Im bipolar n have really struggled w this as well since 2001. Feel like always going from super depressed for months into being super manic w just a weird few weeks between. The last 4 or 5 months have been the most "normal" moods have been. Alotttt of bad n crazy stuff happened n i actually handled it pretty well considering......until few days ago, depression hit me like a ton of bricks!!! I understand your question though, after awhile you kinda forget what normal expected emotions are like. Hang in there!