[LonelyBird]

I've always been a bit sentimental and weepy... movies, tv, stories... I'm an emotional guy and that never bothered me ever. Then, suddenly, I allowed this one emotional moment last week take me away... I just got lost in it and suddenly I can't escape it.

I was sitting happily watching TV with my daughter amazed at how this little girl was growing up so fast and so wonderfully that I got weepy that the days of her sitting on my lap, loving me and needing me were going to end soon and I got a bit weepy (not the first time, but usually it was a good feeling... pride tinged with some nostalgia and regret).

But then... it snowballed... big time. Next thing I know my heart is racing, my chest is chenching, my head is sweating... I have to get up... I have to walk... I have to run... to breathe. I have to cry body racking sobs... and then it passes. I'm OK... but then I start to worry again... were those thoughts real? Any I going to be lonely again? And the cycle starts again.

I went to bed fine that night only to wake up early with another attack. Since then I've come close... I can breathe my way past it and make it through... but I still feel soooo down in the dumps over this. I know how irrational it is... but I can't figure out WHY this is overwhelming me so badly!

[Leed]

Sounds to me like you're having some bad anxiety attacks. That's how they used to hit me, when I was having them. They'd just "take" me -- overwhelm me, like you describe. There wasn't much I could do about it.

You need to talk to your doctor -- perhaps have him refer you to a good therapist and have him show you how to cope with these and perhaps prescribe some medication to help you deal. These can be quite debilitating at times especially if they hit at very inconvenient times! I remember having one while I was checking out at the grocery store -- I had loads of groceries on the line, and here I am having a severe anxiety attack!!! I began deep breathing, etc., but when I was all checked out, she wanted her money -- and I couldn't even write the check out! So all I could do was sign my name to the check (you could BARELY read it -- and the check out girl had to make the rest of it out! I was SOOO embarrassed! I got out of the store as quickly as I could, and didn't go back for a long time!

Talk to your doctor. He can help. I wish you the very best -- and please keep us updated on your progress, will you? God bless and take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee

[Bipolar mom]

This happens to me as well. I often watch my son sleep and cry bc of how fast he is growing and how much I love him. Occasionally I leads to a panic attack. This happens at other times as well. I agree with Leeds... Talk to your dr, I know I should probably do the same. Good luck, hope you figure everything out!

[Thunder Bow]

End "Soon"? How soon? No need to feel guilty about this.

[LonelyBird]

Just back from doctor. He says my pulse was flying but my BP was in good shape. He wants to rule out metabolic or viral issues so we did some blood work in the office. Made an appointment with a psychologist for some talk therapy as well. We'll see where it all leads...

[Thunder Bow]

Having feelings is quite normal. Seems you have mostly good feelings combined with some Anxiety.