[sinking]

Lately i've been feeling like i dont exist more and more.

every day im fighting with all my forces to keep my head above the water.

it feels like im sinking and im so tired of the fight, i'd like to just let it go and die.

[allimsaying]

I know how you feel. Especially if youve experienced it very many times. The arguing and the trying again arguments have all run through your head and never worked. Or did they?

The will to fight can go straight into surrender mode when it feels nothing is working. I hope youre not in danger of harming yourself but if so, please call 911.

hugs...

i feel like it too sometimes- especially recently when i helusinated this girl who i thought was going to kill me... i actually posted- please someone talk to me.. let me know that i'm here.

[mednurse80]

You are not alone. Do get help. There are people who can help you to feel better. You don't need to feel this way.

[jdwonders]

Dear sinking,

There is a period of time where we all feel something similar, some more than others. When I experienced that myself there was something that got me through, it was a thought. It was a knowing when I woke, a knowing when I see my hands. Here is the thought:
'What's it all matter?Wisdom?'
Each of us will have a different answer. Mine was: "I am. I exist."
If you have an addiction, this could be the source. If you simply question your existence due to your intelligence, then all I can write is even if you never find the reason why, you have the choice. All the pain, all the doubt, is a hurdle that is as high as we make it. To oft we fight ourselves and lose, however there is no contest. Take heart, believe in yourself, and never give up. You are strong because you question, you will achieve if you persevere.

Love,
JD