[iffylivy]

What happens if you don't vent your anger that seems to become massive, that it even starts to interrupt your dreams day and night. It's like in the dreams you have this need to last out, but not in the healthy way more physical them verbal.And you want to pursue it in a way where no one gets hurt physically or verbally. But your afraid of what they may think or of how they may feel, but each time you don't speak, it puts more pressure on the issue than it was before.

[BonnieJean]

It sounds like you are having a real tough time and that the anger has really built up. I am dealing with anger myself. I found this link just yesterday when I was exploring how to draw or paint to express anger. The site is says it is for young men but I found it helpful:

http://www.youngmenshealthsite.org/anger.html

Let us know what helps.

[iffylivy]

Sometimes i just want to block everyone out , drown myself in music or just become numb to everything. It doesn't help that I'm always smiling in every situation, but its not what i want to portray on my face, but it just happens. Like i cant even control my facial gestures either.

[Leed]

My therapist suggested that I go in my room, shut the door, maybe turn up the music or the TV, and then SCREAM AS LOUD as I can, into my pillow -- and when I'm done screaming, start pounding the pillow HARD, and think of a person that I'm the maddest at while I'm pounding the pillow -- and I can scream then too!

When I was done doing all that, I was exhausted, but I sure FELT better! I'd gotten some angry emotions out -- somewhat, anyway. It released a lot of pent-up tension, and I really did feel better. It's worth a try. Just thought I'd mention it. Take care! Hugs, Lee

[iffylivy]

hmmm interesting, get mad at my pillow, id probably hit it than be like "oh so soft". but ill try that.