I need help but...

I'm too scared to say this here. Its something that could get me in trouble for a long time if someone chose to report me and I'm scared to say anything because of it. I need someone to talk to. I'm broke and can't afford a therapist but I'm at the edge. I want to hurt someone, I just don't feel like putting up with it anymore. Its like everything they say is like nails to a chalkboard. Everything they do just makes me feel more and more alone. They're filth to me. I just tried and failed to talk someone out of suicide because the world had wronged him so much. The way I see it, it's either them or me.

can you leave?

is the person you talked out of suicide the person you want to destroy?
no one will turn you in maybe talking will help you think about this with some new options. I am very sorry for you and hope there is a little light at the end of your tunnel.

No. I just want to destroy everyone. I didn't talk him out of suicide, I failed and he did it anyway. Because the people out there just pushed him to the edge. Why should the good people die? Why can't I get rid of the bad people? And no I can't leave, they're everywhere around me. It's every little thing anyone says nowadays. I just feel like tearing the whole world apart.

Dear hatter, please whatever you do, think about what is positive. My personal experience has xealt with a very close person commiting suicide and its NOT the answer. I know you feel like you have failed him bit you didn't...you did everythinv in your power. Hold your head up high and try looking for a church close by. They may also be of help. I would love to say more, but its difficult not knowing your whole situation. I will pray for you.

i know how it feels when everything just makes it worse and you cant stand being around certain people, but letting the cruelty of the world get to you will make you more and more miserable. i can tell you're hurting and that you feel stuck, so if you need anyone to talk to at anytime, people are listening and they care so just hold onto the positives in life if you can