[GirlOfManyFaces]

Long story short...

THIS HAS A LOT OF TRIGGERS. Dn read if you are easily triggered by words.

Sorry for being so blunt.



I have a long distance boyfriend I do t have feelings for

I am having trouble with my friend. I don't want to have friends anymore. She is a cutter and it hurts me when she does it. I feel like my past made her start doing that. Like I gave her the idea.

I'm still have VERY STRONG feelings for my ex boyfriend who raped me

I am bi and I'm having problems with how I feel for people.

I miss my old BFF!!! I was in LOVE LOVE LOVE with her. She loved me back. We could have had something

I hate my dad.

I am extremely lonely in life.

Nothing is easy.

I'm just SOOOOOOOOO STRESSED!!! You wouldn't believe it!!

That's not even close to 1/8 of it. I just don't want to write it all...

I have very low self esteem and I am thinking bad things. I want to harm myself because of all the stress. It's unbearable

[avlady]

I feel bad for you because you feel so bad. I hope and pray today that you will have courage to get through this day. One thing I think although, is, that I don't think your friend is cutting herself because of you, she has her own problems herself and maybe you can help her but if you feel you cant I suggest you stay away from her until she can get her head together.If not, she will still be cutting and you'll still be feeling guilty and bad. I can believe your level of stess as I've had a period of time in my life where I was like that too. My meds helped me it took years to feel as good as I do now, and I still have days when I feel pretty messed up, but not nearly as much anymore. I see a doctor and a T, and that helps too.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by GirlOfManyFaces

I am having trouble with my friend. I don't want to have friends anymore. She is a cutter and it hurts me when she does it. I feel like my past made her start doing that. Like I gave her the idea.

I have been on this forum for a year and a half, read a heap of accounts of cutting, from other people, and it has never entered my mind, ever, to cut.

Do you get it?

You have so many things spinning around in your mind... I know something of what that's like. You don't know where to start to sort it all out & you can't imagine that it's even possible to do so. It's like a gigantic ball of wire that seemingly is impossible to untangle. But you must try. I don't know if you have a therapist. If not, I'd strongly suggest that you find one; preferably one who has experience working with people who have gender issues. If you've tried seeing therapists before & it didn't work out, try again & keep trying until you find someone you feel comfortable with. This can take time, I know. I've been through a few myself. But continuing to "pick at this snarled-up ball of twine" alone is just going to make things worse. I know that because that's what I do!

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by Bedobones

You have so many things spinning around in your mind... I know something of what that's like. You don't know where to start to sort it all out & you can't imagine that it's even possible to do so. It's like a gigantic ball of wire that seemingly is impossible to untangle. But you must try. I don't know if you have a therapist. If not, I'd strongly suggest that you find one; preferably one who has experience working with people who have gender issues. If you've tried seeing therapists before & it didn't work out, try again & keep trying until you find someone you feel comfortable with. This can take time, I know. I've been through a few myself. But continuing to "pick at this snarled-up ball of twine" alone is just going to make things worse. I know that because that's what I do!

Exactly... I did have a therapist. But she made life worse for me. I have this weird issue with ALL therapists. It's impossible for me to get along with them.

I want and need help, but I can't tell my parents about my sexuality issues because they are very judgmental. Especially about that topic.

Thank you so very much for your comment. It means so much to me that you even bothered to reply