Ended Relationship Tonight, Missing my Child, All I have is My Dog

Sounds like a country song, but it's true.
I feel so lonely.
With some support from the forum I quickly decided tonight to end a relationship with an intimidator. But also, I am have feelings of guilt and loss over missing my child, who was kidnapped in 2010 and taken 1800 miles away. I was one of the lucky parents. My child was recovered in 28 days. Although the police were involved, the criminal managed to avoid charges because he was a 'relative.' At that time, the police, who were ignorant of the law, said it was a domestic dispute, not a criminal one. But the 'relative' had no rights to her and even cut her hair and changed her appearance, and vaccinated her in preparation for travel.
I feel guilt that I have not been a more doting parent since I flew out and found her. I get tired easily and suffer from PTSD, and I'm am not 'there' like I want to be. Now she has left for a visitation several states away, and I am so scared we will go thru another abduction. The court ordered that if her kidnapper spends time with her alone, that her dad must post a 50,000 dollar surity bond to ensure she is returned. But I have no way of knowing if the bond gets posted.
I feel lonely and miss her.

Thank you for the hugs.

That's a lot to go through, SideCrow. And it looks like you're pretty new to the site, so welcome. I hope everything goes alright with the visitation and she comes back in one piece, and I wish you healing energy and light.

Thank you ... It's a better day.