Flipping the switch

Ugh...with all the work I have done on myself, the one thing I have not fully gain control over is my "switch". I find it ridiculously easy that when someone behaves badly to cut them out of my life without explanation by simply flipping this switch and say ....next. At first I thought it was a healthy thing to do but it's not. It's not allowing me to recognize my feelings/emotions, it simply allows me to shut them off.

With that said, I guess I should set all joking aside and stop making comments such as I have a heart that is 3 sizes too small and one feeling. Or that I am indeed dead inside.

I do on most days try my hardest now to let myself feel, and to work through each detail and feeling in a time frame that works for me. It's hard but someones gotta do it. Blerg.

Feelings, nothing more than feelings.

Oh, I know exactly what you mean. I've had a "tendancy" to do that over the years, and now I don't even want to get close to anyone. Lots of hugs to you and welcome to the forums.

Thanks short and cute. I do not stop myself from getting close to anyone, its what I am capable of when they hurt me. I am trying so hard to just work through my feelings instead of flicking that switch cuz it is so unhealthy to just shut'er down.