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Hi. I am nervous as I write this. I don't know what to do about anything anymore. I feel like my life is so... Empty. I am lonely and have felt lonely for so much of my life that whenever I get these feelings, it seems like they will NEVER go away. I feel like people never want to hangout wth me anymore. It hurts my feelings so much. If people have other plans that's fine but when people don't write or text back I am SO hurt. It makes me feel so unwanted. I do so much for people. I love doing nice things for them. I really don't do them to get anything in return. I just like to do it.

Sorry for the rant. I just don't have any friends really and have nowhere to vent my emotions.

I kind of like being alone, but I hate feeling lonely if that makes sense. I can watch a movie or just relax at home.. But when I get ignored or people don't invite me places.. My feelings are so hurt. Ah I don't know how to explain what in feeling right now. I have anxiety on a daily basis. I always think the worst is happening and that I did something terribly wrong for someone to not talk to me. I am thinking about stuff like that every second of every day. I'm always wondering why I don't have a lot of friends. It's so hard I just want to be happy.

Sunflowere44....how wonderful it is that you are able to express your emotions this way!! And to look for answers! You should really feel proud of yourself
As you already know, there is a difference between being alone and being lonely. You said that you get hurt when people don't invite you places (I understand that!), but why wait to be invited? Invite someone to do something with you! Or simply go on your own and do things....you may meet potential friends by simply having fun on your own.
I am not a therapist but maybe you really would benefit from talking to a professional? I love that they are there when we really need to figure things out!!

Texting and E. Mails are superfical my their very nature and are easy to over look. Seek personal contact live in person instead. Also feel comfortable being alone. Emotional maturity is the capacity to be alone as well as be with others.