[tealBumblebee]

I just don't know how I feel. I know I don't feel great, but I also don't feel like slicing my legs. Lately all of my emotion has just balled up into my stomach, like in a big lump. I made myself vomit yesterday ...never done that before. And I don't want bad teeth, so I don't want to make it a habit, but tonight that deep pitted ball of "feelings" sits like a weight in my stomach once again. Its more of a physical pain with just enough emotion to know its not medically based. I don't have T for a few more days (Monday), and I do plan to open up with her more...I feel like I'm ready to begin being healed, but until then I must cope...and I just don't know how. I feel void.

[Thunder Bow]

Be dedicated to your healing. To heal, you must want to heal. It will take time

[gayleggg]

Glad you have a therapy appointment, even if it does seem like a long way away. It's good you are wanting to open up to your therapist. Maybe if you opened up here on the forum and dumped some of your emotions it would ease that ball knotted up in your stomach. Take care over the weekend.
gayle

[tealBumblebee]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

Be dedicated to your healing. To heal, you must want to heal. It will take time

Yes...I always knew that but I truly understood that this week. Didn't realize how shut off I was. Thank you.

Originally Posted by gayleggg

Glad you have a therapy appointment, even if it does seem like a long way away. It's good you are wanting to open up to your therapist. Maybe if you opened up here on the forum and dumped some of your emotions it would ease that ball knotted up in your stomach. Take care over the weekend.
gayle

Yes, just a few more days...you have a good point here. As much as i've posted in this short time span, I really haven't said anything about my actual problems (just mainly the feels)...maybe I will try...

[deelooted]

Blessings to you, Bee, hope you find healing soon