[Ashli]

All i do is push people away...especially guys i really care for...i act like a complete dork! It's like my brain is purpousfully trying to ruin every good relationship i could have! i hate who i am!

[MotownJohnny]

Me too, a thousand times over. I don't push people away, I don't get them close enough. I like people, they seem to like me, but I never get beyond the acquaintance level. I would love to have some really great friends, even if one or two, the kind of lifelong friendships a lot of guys have. And, of course, I would love to meet some nice women and have romantic relationships as well. I just can't seem to do it. Now, I'm such a mess, who would ever want to be involved with me. I guess to guys, I come off as too weird, and to women, probably they would find me too weak and emotional, and that would be a turnoff. So, I feel destined to always be lonely, on the outside looking in.I'll die like Eleanor Rigby.

[allme]

I at times also hate myself. It isn't easy! I also relate to pushing ppl away which is crazy cause my biggest fear is to be alone. Sorry you hate you right now. Although hard try and see what good in you there really is. I bet there is so much more to you, you just can't see it right now.

Be kind to yourself