[Anberlin]

Emotions really can drive you crazy in my opinion. I'm kind of unsure about posting here, but I feel I need to write this out and actually have someone see it rather then having it bouncing around in my head.

I recently found out I was pregnant. My husband and I have been trying for a few months and I'm now 6 weeks. Although we had been trying, now that I know I am pregnant I'm scared to death. This is my first time ever being pregnant, and at the time when we were trying I felt like this was what I wanted, but now I've been feeling so scared, and unsure that I'm starting to feel like this was a mistake. Which make me feel guilty as heck. I can no longer picture my life and how it's going to be a few years from now. I just feel really lost and alone even though I have my loving husband right here with me.

I've suffered from Depression and Anxiety which I'm sure has a lot to do with what I'm currently feeling and to top it off I've had to get off any medication that might cause pregnancy complications. I've been told to talk about what I'm feeling with people going through similar situations, but I currently don't know anyone in this situation -- and even if I did I don't think I could bring myself to talk to anyone face to face about this. I just really need to get this off my chest.

Thanks.

[gayleggg]

I don't think it is strange to have second thoughts and to be scared. Having baby is a big responsibility. I don't think you should feel guilty. And don't try to picture your life years in the future because you can't predict the future. Seeing your baby for the first time will likely change all you doubts to thoughts of wonder at such a wonderful gift. Stay on top of it though. Make sure you tell your doctor all your thoughts. Your body is raging with hormones right now, and that can cause anxiety and depression. And come to PC anytime you wish to get things off your chest.