[JorDonniefan]

my situation is people seem to think I can't really expression emotions which is because of the not talking situation and then anger became present. This is what I think. I can't really say anything for other people because they can think what they want to. but I can't get this is out of my stupid head that this is so much more than anger. I am just agreeing with other people that it is just anger for right now. but what happens if I have a shortened life? I know their exact response after I am dead and gone is, "She brought it upon herself."

[JorDonniefan]

And that I can't really do anything that I want to do because these people think that I will haul off and hit other people because of my stupid anger. I really think this moodiness is much more than anger. but anyhow people seem to think they know so much about my body and how I feel that I just seem to want to give up and not try anymore. And then just think to myself...... that I this whole thing would just die and to be dead and gone. and then goes that thinking again what other people will say, "well she brought it upon herself". Perhaps, I could ignore my feelings and listen to other people?

[JorDonniefan]

I have no other choice but to ignore my feelings and listen to other peoples feelings. :'(

[JorDonniefan]

oh. My moodiness has occurred every three days or so. but that is not what other people are going to say. I don't know what others. all I know is people said I was acting inappropriately over there in an apartment. So that is why I can't ever live alone ever! I hate this anger or moodiness. I really think this is anger/general moodiness combined which is making it worse. But whatever people seem to think they know all about my body and my feelings. and ya know what I am going to be so much trouble if someone was looking over my shoulder as I was writing this. :'(