[Desmarietiny]

I recently cheated on my boyfriend of two months. I was drinking and my body wouldn't say no while my head did but my lips never spoke. He didn't do anything wrong. My personal demons came back haunting me. I woke up the next morning I woke up and realized what I had done, there was an instant overwhelming sadness and guilt because of it. Now every night when I try to sleep all I can do is think about the pain and damaged I've caused. Knowing I broke my first love's heart. I feel like I should never fall in love again. If he chooses to leave me. Which is possible because it still hasn't sunken in fully yet with him.

[middie]

After the initial shock has settled, your BF may feel thankful that you have been honest with him.

He may decide to stay, however you definitely need to go to couple counselling/relationship therapy. You need to look at why you cheat, in order to do something about it otherwise sadly, you will do it again. He may even in the midst of his hurt feel the need to get even, and do the same. Sadly once again that's the risk you run when you cheat on someone.

Once again if you both do decide to try and move forwards, its going to be difficult and you will need some professional help to work through things, otherwise you will be back to square one. It will be emotionally and physically, and mentally draining, and hard work.

Good luck....you will find plenty of support here x