[judyhm62]

I have to make five posts. This is my third one. I didn't go to a Christmas party last night so that I could get a good night sleep and get up and go to church this morning for a Christmas celebration. I slept pretty good, and I slept enough. However, I woke up with no energy and in pain. Now I don't feel like going to church. And I am upset that I passed up the party last night. I'm sick of being depressed. I have tried so many antidepressants, and none of them work. They all wake me up at night or have other intolerable side effects like paralyzed muscles in my face! I am so frustrated and want to get through my fifth post so that I can get some feedback.

[judyhm62]

Post four. Well, my daughter and her fiance have gone to church where the Christmas celebration will happen after church. I don't even know how to get there, and it's out in the country. Maybe i could start feeling better and go after church. But I cannot because I do not know how to get there.

I am so lonely. My last longterm relationship ended May of 2011. I have been on online dating sites and have had no promising responses. I have been overwhelmed with responses, but only one may work out if I like him when we meet in person. And that may not even work out because I do not really want to relocate and neither does he. And he lives 60 miles away. Sure, I'd love to move in wth him IF we are compatible. But my 18 y.o. daughter needs me to live near where I am in order to help support her through two years of college. She won't get a job! I would hate to know that she couldn't afford to finish college because I moved away and left her to fend for herself.

Well, this is post four out of five before I'm approved. I find it necessary to vent.