[judyhm62]

I have Bipolar I, Depressed, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibromyalgia and arthritis. I am only 50. I should not be this sick! I have tried about 20 different antidpressants, and they all don't work. It makes me want to die. I'm not saying that I am going to kill myself. I just wish I were dead.

My ex and I broke up in May of 2011, and I have yet to find a man I like well enough to have a relationship with. I've dated, and it has not been a very good experience. The last man I dated was on drugs, which I found out on the fourth date. I am so lonely. I just want to sleep all the time to tune out my reality.

Is there anyone out there who can tell me something to make me feel better?

[-jimi-]

Age doesn't decide if you "should" be sick. If you are, you are. I have mental issues since forever and physical ones since I was 26. Those things just happen. There are no laws, no one can be hold responsible when someone's life doesn't turn out ideal. We have to work with what we have. Tough, I know it.

[gayleggg]

Originally Posted by jimi...

Age doesn't decide if you "should" be sick. If you are, you are. I have mental issues since forever and physical ones since I was 26. Those things just happen. There are no laws, no one can be hold responsible when someone's life doesn't turn out ideal. We have to work with what we have. Tough, I know it.

I have to agree with you Jimi, even though, when I'm in the pits of depression like now. I have a hard time facing it.

I remember when I was 49 and had breast cancer, my husband said, "Why you?" and I replied "Why not me?". I am a surviver of cancer and of life. I am now 61 and terribly depressed but so are a lot of other people. And I won't even go into the physical. I just keep taking one step at a time.

[happiedasiy]

Originally Posted by judyhm62

I have Bipolar I, Depressed, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibromyalgia and arthritis. I am only 50. I should not be this sick! I have tried about 20 different antidpressants, and they all don't work. It makes me want to die. I'm not saying that I am going to kill myself. I just wish I were dead.

My ex and I broke up in May of 2011, and I have yet to find a man I like well enough to have a relationship with. I've dated, and it has not been a very good experience. The last man I dated was on drugs, which I found out on the fourth date. I am so lonely. I just want to sleep all the time to tune out my reality.

Is there anyone out there who can tell me something to make me feel better?

Dearest Judy,
Trust me when the time is right and you are right with yourself there is someone who will love all of you. I don't feel like you have really healed all that you have been through. This is temporary, when you are ready it will come.

Its a age old question, which came first, the Physical pain or the mental pain?
The reason I ask is that you said you have tried many antidepressants to no avail. Mental pain is awful and will drag you down, then when physical pain comes into play, it is a ruthless and at times seems unbearable.

When You get this way you have to have a backup plan.
Talk with your dr or get 2nd opinion, talk to someone who shares similar experiences on PC.

I am an agnostic Buddhist and The Dalai Lama quoted, if you ask why me, the next question is in the answer why not you?
Life is an experience of polarities.
Reflect on all the knowledge you have gained thus far and what you want to achieve in the next chapter of your life.

First IMO where is this depression coming from, is it fear, is it anxiety, is it loneliness, when was the last time someone has touched you with love and compassion? Our skin has so many nerve endings (fibromyalgia) has no known scientific root cause it is my belief that it can be managed by touch.../ not sexual touch but healing acupressure.
When we mentally feel better our pain lessons it is biochemical response.
You don't have to be sick. Get Pain management for your chronic pain.
In todays time no one should be suffering the way you described.
Laughter is really good. Me and a friend of mine laugh at all our ills because if we didn't we would end up crying!
Consider getting a pet companion, they give unconditional Love.

You write the next chapter of your life, share your story.
People suffering in silence can help others this way.
You are not alone,
Happiedasiy