[rigaschuckler]

My mind is always restless.
I know it is difficult to answer a question from a stranger, but I don’t have any other option.
I have an important exam coming after 6 months, and I have been preparing at home. Initially it was good, but now I find it very difficult to follow. I know my life depends up on it, and as a guy, I must act maturely. Still, this happens I would procrastinate, act lazy and succumb to my emotions. I fear I will fear if I go like this. Question of friends doesn’t exist because my experience with people has been horrible.
I am alone and I accept it. It was my choice. I am not at all indulging in other people’s lives and I expect the same from them. But my mind wanders and I don’t know what will happen to me. I am fantasizing too much, I use internet too much, and like a horse without reins I feel I am going astray.
I shouldn’t ask like this because at this age all of my pals are having families.(I am 26 now).My emotions are making a coup d’état on my entire personality. I hate people now, I like being negative, I like being like a cloud, floating aimlessly. I have an aim but I cannot work for that. I know I have to study but I cannot do that. I am getting bored so easily. My mind is attached to things giving instant pleasure. If you ask for being with my girl friend, I don’t have one. I tried meditation, but no effect. I cannot ask my parents for going to a therapist because they won’t understand.
How do you follow your dreams while not pulling the legs of your own life?

[unaluna]

Perhaps You need to set a physical training goal also. Yoga or swimming or build muscles.

[dickins391]

First, you should see a therapist, you don't need anyone's permission to do this at age 26 and I think it'll help to have someone to bounce ideas off of in person. Find one you click with and feel like you can open up to.

Second, you say you like being negative, I understand how that can feel. BUT as a former pessimist, I know that I like being positive even better. It's kind of refreshing to be able to see the positive in every situation - and trust me, there IS a positive in almost every situation (sometimes it's a lesson).

Third, replace any negative hobbies you might have (like playing too many video games, using drugs, overeating etc.) with other positive hobbies like cooking, writing, or starting a project. Exercising is probably the best thing you can pick up. You'll find that exercising will increase your serotonin levels in your brain (making you happier), help you FOCUS (good for your studying), and even help you sleep. Plus, as your body changes, you'll get more and more confident.

Fourth, try finding an online community (like the one on PlaceboEffect.com) that offers support from professionals AND people like you. That site also gives you life purpose advice, so that might be a good place to start.

Fifth, keep asking for help. Posting on sites like this will give you insight from other people who have come from all walks of life.

I hope these tips help you! They've helped me when I've felt the way you do!