[Orbit26]

I can't say I normally have these thoughts in my head. Normally, I am ambivalent or ambiguous-- I tend to be more neutral than anything, unless I am on one of my ups or downs.

Though, recently, noticing a few things, I've began to feel a few strange feelings I am not used to. First of all, I have been having some... hard times. Normally, I tend to ignore if those around me have fallen into better luck or events.

Though, recently, it's been biting into me. Jealously or envy isn't something I want to admit to, but I cannot deny it, nor do I even wish to hide it. I am beginning to hold negative emotions for those who succeed more than me. It's not like my opinion truly matters-- they're already more successful, and my opinion won't change anything.

I've always noticed, subsequently, how little value I hold. I rate myself below others, due to the cocktail of nasty traits I hold, and the fact that I don't hold a favorable amount of useful traits, skills, or anything of intrinsic value.

Second, is the feelings of anger over being overlooked. I thank everyone who pays attention to me. It is as though I have this aura around me that others despise, and prefer to stay away from.

As a simple example, I frequent a forum for a game I play. In the forums, there is a section where you can make suggestions, and get feedback from others. I have made multiple suggestions, expounding upon my ideals and putting genuine effort into my works.

I get nothing but one comment on the name of my ideal. Others who put an equal amount of work in get several degrees more of popularity, and I can accept that. However, others that put less effort than I, sometimes even slapping their ideas together, get several degrees of feedback than me, and that really makes me feel bad.

Even when it comes to other things, I am overlooked for others, generally. Even on forums like these, I write detailed posts on my issues and advice I want, and I will get a generous 4 people commenting on my posts, which I greatly appreciate.

Then, one person, it doesn't matter, comes along and, despite their reasoning, they get more empathy, sympathy, feedback, and response than I do. I used to hold negative feelings for such people, but I tend to blame myself more.

This has not impacted me in positive ways-- It has drastically lowered the value at once I hold myself, which wasn't much to begin with. To be honest, out of everyone, I am the biggest piece of **** I know.

Though, I have mixed emotions about posting this, as I feel I will seem rather whiny and begging for attention-- and it even shows off more bad traits about me, but if I had joined this website and posted nothing, that'd be a waste, now, wouldn't it?

Hey there. That happens to me too haha. It's hard but I try not to let it get to me. I figure it really all depends on who is on at the time to answer the post, and depending on the content it's a lot easier to answer some rather than others. Perhaps people have looked at it but could not figure out what to say and etc. Maybe they only had time to look at a few posts today and mine was already too far down by the time they got there. I know I have time between classes so I'll take a look at what's new but generally I only have time to respond to a few. And I also tend to post at odd hours of the day so I know mine aren't read as well.

But please take comfort in the fact that people ARE reading your messages and even if you don't get an answer you are being heard I hear you. Though I will agree it does hurt a little haha.

[Orbit26]

Originally Posted by keeprolling

Hey there. That happens to me too haha. It's hard but I try not to let it get to me. I figure it really all depends on who is on at the time to answer the post, and depending on the content it's a lot easier to answer some rather than others. Perhaps people have looked at it but could not figure out what to say and etc. Maybe they only had time to look at a few posts today and mine was already too far down by the time they got there. I know I have time between classes so I'll take a look at what's new but generally I only have time to respond to a few. And I also tend to post at odd hours of the day so I know mine aren't read as well.

But please take comfort in the fact that people ARE reading your messages and even if you don't get an answer you are being heard I hear you. Though I will agree it does hurt a little haha.

Hello. I thank you deeply for the meaningful reply, and it truly means a lot to me. However, after my other post and the result, I feel a deep, resounding feeling of shame. I feel shame for my posts on this website for a multitude of reasons, including the fact that, in the end, they are just cries for attention.

I am deeply embarrassed by many of my postings, and I feel now that I may be wasting people's time. I apologize for that, and I am still grateful for the reply.

The reason why this site exists is for people who are hurting to be heard and comforted. Do not be ashamed to want to have a voice and connect with people. We are all on this forum looking to be less alone and to be surrounded with people who feel the same things we do.