What I feel is wrong

If I have the feelings of a selfish, lazy and greedy person, doesn't that make me selfish, lazy, and greedy? My feelings always seem to make things worse. I know good, successful, productive, and kind people don't feel these things. I don't want to feel them either. I just want them to go away before they wreck my future.

I feel too tired and aggravated to work enough to earn my own living. Consequence: I will end up as a burden to my parents or homeless.

I get angry at people for rejecting me or treating me badly, even though it's my weird behavior that pushes people away.
Consequence: Everyone will continue to reject me and treat me badly because I deserve it.

I want more of everything. Food, sleep, time, things. No matter how much I get, I always want more, more, more.
Consequence: I will fixate so much on these trivial things that I will miss out on opportunities to improve my life. Everyone will be disgusted by my greed and judge me harshly for having the wrong values, because I put my stupid comforts about things that really matter.

I feel discouraged and despondent that I've made so many unforgivable mistakes in my life -- mistakes that good conscientious people don't make.
Consequence: I will have created a terrible reputation for myself. People will know I can't be relied on and they won't want me around for anything they do, be it for work or leisure time.

I have to stop myself from having these feelings or I will end up to be a gigantic failure and burden to everyone I know.

Winterglen......the fact that you add the consequences after the 'feelings' or actions, really.......proves you are NOT a selfish, lazy, greedy person.

I know people who are, and trust me.....not only are they oblivious of ANY consequences, if even one occured to them...they wouldn't give a shyt.

perhaps some therapy and medication will help (not self medication either!)
that way you could avoid being a burden to your parents, it appears you do have empathy for them, maybe this will help you have a lil for yourself!

we all have been guilty of pushing people away in one form or another..i just might be the undisputed king of it.. i'm single now because of my stupidity, but that doesn't mean you can't change, everyone can change for the better (even me!)and you can too....just takes some effort.

it is only natural to want more of everything..money,love,affection,happiness
it's all about channeling your desires in the right direction..if you know what matters you only need to pursue it! problem solved!!

everyone makes mistakes, WE ALL DO! there is not a person out there that has not made a mistake..some bigger than others and unforgivable is a subjective term..what you may feel is unforgivable may be forgiven in time, if not you must let it go..there are no time machines ( if there were i would be very busy undoing my mistakes & wouldn't have any time to be here on PC )
we cannot change the past, only the future.

i think getting therapy would work wonders for you as well as spending time here on PC, it has helped me immensely & i believe it could help you too.
hang in there. it's never easy but in time it can be done