I Hate Holidays

Every holiday is hell for me. Seeing and hearing about friends and families spending time together reminds me of how alone I am. I feel even more lonely and depressed than usual. And worse, I start to remember a time when I did have people to celebrate with. Instead of cherishing those memories I just feel sad and full of regret. I guess it comes from the fact that almost everyone I have ever loved (and who loved me) died. I always end up alone.

I'm having trouble coping with these feelings, like I do every holiday. Distractions don't work. The one person left on Earth who actually does care about me is too busy to help me pull it. I...I don't know what to do.

I'm so sorry you're feeling so alone LockedSoul....a lot of us here know how you feel. It's so difficult to get thru....I know.

Just wanted to let you know, you're really not alone. I'm here. We all are.

I know this feeling. It has gotten better over the years....I really try hard to understand it is another day. If I choose to do something special for myself that's fine. I'm here at PC and I get to express myself and listen others.... with really good music playing in the background.

I'm really not into the holidays. Except Christmas and Thanksgiving. I was going to see fireworks with my sister tonight but she had to cancel, due to work. It really doesn't bother me that much. As the poster above said many of us don't do anything special on alot of the holidays and as you get older. It really doesn't effect me that much.
Now when I was a kid on Fourth Of July. It was on!!!
Just one day and it's done. Like another poster said, you can always fall back on the people here for support!

Hello, LockedSoul. Volunteering is one thing that has helped me during the holidays. It gets me out of the house and helping people.

I wish you well.