Do I have a disorder, or am I just emotionally all over the place?

Hello all,

So I came here to begin with, as someone undiagnosed with BPD symptoms and convinced that I have these strong symptoms.

I have seen one therapist and now referred to another- for CAT

Whilst I am waiting for that next appointment, and on citalopram now zoloft, I have been thinking, do I have a disorder at all? my issues span across the bi polar, personality and depression spectrum -diagnosed with long term depression a few years back. And now verging on the edge of what I believe to be Psychotic and frightening black holes (metaphorically) and i'm convinced the medication is making it worse (zoloft).

But, I have been reading alot about how many of the disorders are made up to accommodate the wide marketing campaign of medication which splits me in two minds about if I have a mental disorder, or I just need help rewiring my emotions, as the way I deal with daily issues and tasks does debilitate my current living and future if not resolved.

Anyone in the same situation, or could give a rational piece of advice?

One thing I know is that I am definatley unhappy and unable to deal with 'ordinary' tasks and general life.

Thanks

well bpd covers a board span of categories that makes one unable to function. it will make you emotionally all over the place. if you are feeling psychotic since on the Zoloft, could be the med. it caused me to have hallucinations and hear voices after being on it a couple weeks. triggered a mania. I am bipolar. bipolar shares several symptoms with bpd. maybe you need a good evaluation. take care.

I can't really help you, just tell you about myself. I was diagnosed manic bipolar, manic depressive and BPD. I was on Prozac, Zoloft, Risperdal. I'm not on any medication now, because I felt like the meds were not worth my weight gain and while my moods were kind of stabilized, when I hit a rough patch I hit it hard and long. Now my moods are still uneven but I feel I can cope better and have shorter rough patches. It doesn't matter what your diagnoses is but what your symptoms are. Many BPDs have symptoms of bipolar and depression and ADHD and anxiety problems. Key is to manage each symptom to master your moods and level out your life.

[QUOTE= It doesn't matter what your diagnoses is but what your symptoms are. Many BPDs have symptoms of bipolar and depression and ADHD and anxiety problems. Key is to manage each symptom to master your moods and level out your life. [/QUOTE]

can't agree more, thank you, that's what I need to assess and focus on, and put into perspective

Thank you,

It has been a few days on the med, already terrible reaction.
I woke up and vomited and then shook in a cold sweat, strong and debilitating ab pain also.

Featuring paranoia and I have never been medicated for that, but get it more socially, this time I am also hearing whispering. But it does not make me afraid.

With regards to the evaluation - thanks for this advice also, I have often found it tremendously difficult to get a good eval. So being referred to CAT meant that I might be in with a chance.

Yes BPD does cross into Bi polar vice versa and I genuinely feel my troubles lie in this area of mental health.