[PianogirlPlays]

I seem to be able to get to a better place inside but find it very difficult to stay there. I start looking back. I start hitting myself on the inside. The pain in my body comes back. They were bad experiences and hurting feelings but I keep scratching at the wounds so they just don't get to heal. Once I have the first thought others just start following after. Sometimes I succeed to get a grip on things by distraction. Poor mental habits !

[glok]

Hello, PianogirlPlays. I am sorry this is happening. I am sure you are aware, professional help is an option.

I wish you well.

[ClemFan]

I understand what you are saying. Mine is worse at night trying to get to sleep. You rerun the past in your mind over and over again. The pain and hurt you felt rushes back over you and drags you down. Most of the time I end up staying awake, lost in past pain, lies, heartbreaks esc.
I have found that if I can feel it coming on before it gets in full meltdown mode I can stop it. I have to find something to take my mind off it. I read, watch TV, surf the net till the sleep takes me. I still loose sleep just not as much.
As seeing a T helps a lot to. The Meds have worked wonders. They do not take it all away but it gives me a edge on stopping it before it starts.

I hope you feel better and find some relief. I do know that forgiveness is a powerful start.

Clemfan

I'm in this boat as well. In times when there's a prolonged silence, I often realize that I'm starting to think of bad memories again. I used to just sink in it without realizing what was happening, but now I know I have to immediately take off the focus somehow or be in a lot of pain. I also do things to distract myself. Telling myself what's going on loudly and clearly in my head can help too.

[lovesdogs99]

Yes yes yes! This is what happens to me, too. One thought after another... until my head is full and I wanna scream. Then I can't unthink the thoughts for days or weeks..

I try to do a lot.. or when the thought comes, tell myself to STOP! And start singing a song or reciting something over and over again until I have normal thoughts.

Memories are easier to shut out than fears or anxieties.

[PianogirlPlays]

Yes, stopping the sooner the better.

Had this really bad today and all the time I was outdoors meaning to distract or block myself from the build up of thoughts, it's making me so miserable.

[PianogirlPlays]

I went for help and got so hurt. Not the first time . I have had some helpful and some hurtful. When it hurts it hurts very badly. This last time really hurt a lot.