But I'm not going to end my life, it's not because I want to live, it's because I don't want to die. Everyone else has problems, but it doesn't seem to bother them as much as it does to me, they more or less are 'living', they seem to be having fun, I'm not.

Looks like It's not going to get any better, so If I could go back in time, and I if I had a choice, I'd choose not to be born at all. All this seems a bit too much for me, life, emotions, relationships, sorrow, failure and everyday occurrences like that.

It seems that I keep coming back here, making thread after thread.

[nicoleflynn]

Have you considered therapy?

Originally Posted by nicoleflynn

Have you considered therapy?

I have, I did seek help from a psychologist for a while, but I haven't been able to have regular sessions.

[Lovelybrain20]

Originally Posted by brokenentity

But I'm not going to end my life, it's not because I want to live, it's because I don't want to die. Everyone else has problems, but it doesn't seem to bother them as much as it does to me, they more or less are 'living', they seem to be having fun, I'm not.

Looks like It's not going to get any better, so If I could go back in time, and I if I had a choice, I'd choose not to be born at all. All this seems a bit too much for me, life, emotions, relationships, sorrow, failure and everyday occurrences like that.

It seems that I keep coming back here, making thread after thread.

Yea i don't want to live either but i don't want die. It's confusing. I feel dead anyway though. Nothing makes me really happy. And if it does it never lasts.

Brokenentity

[JoeS21]

The line that jumps out at me the most from your post is, "they seem to be having fun, I'm not." If that's the crux, I might venture a guess that if you made a list of 10 things you would like to do at some point in your life every day, life might get a little better. Every day add 10 things to a list that you want to do before you die. Some of those things are bound to come true, especially if you write them down. Trust me.