[Hotice]

Ok,let me start off by telling you a bit about myself.

My dad is a choleric/melancholy man,he gets angry easily,not patient complains a lot,secretive,workaholic, old school,grumpy,always looking for things bla bla bla you get the picture.

My mum is a sanguine/phlegmatic social,uninterested,nossy, calm,thoughtful,gisting, bla bla bla,u get the picture,so basically my mum is very protective of me being the last born and her only son out of her four children, she has 3 daughters, and a son(me). But I hate it when she monitors me or try to tell me what to do.

I am 19 year old going on 20. I am not working yet though I desire to work. I still live under my parent roof,am a medical student so I guess I have above average intelligence or so I think. The truth is,I don't have a naturally flare or passion for medicine and surgery,it was imposed on me by my dad,and being a cunning man he tries to make me think it's not his own choice But mine. Not that I hate what I study(medicine) But that I don't have a natural inclination towards it. I am more inclined towards computer stuffs like hacking programming,software's,internet security,hardware and circuitry, logic,and stuffs like that,it's just natural of me,But what did my dad say to it? That I can't get a good job with computer science.

And my mum being indifferent doesn't really put too much pressure on anyone so she is Ok with whatever I chose to be. I think my mum doesn't see me as an adult yet,and it's annoying,am just waiting for the next time I will leave this house,I will try my best not to return the way I left,and I will prove all of them wrong. AM NOT A KID!!!

I have few friends,even though I could be very jovial and I can make anyone laugh,trust me,except the person has the dryest sense of humor. I think I have few friends because am the indoor type of person,I am not selective though in making friends,I have standards, I keep friends I know I can trust so if am to count my friends they are like 5 or less than that. When I say friends I means those I truly trust at least,it's not like I trust anyone anyway. I am kind off paranoid,I read meaning to every single details around me coming from other people. If u say "a" I can tell u y u said "a" ,what u meant,what u are likely to say next and ur state of mind while saying "a" not like am a psychic tho But I read meanings a lot.
I know how to make myself happy,although I get sad attimes when I feel I haven't achieved what I want or that I am not where I really want to be. Sometimes I ask myself the meaning of life,what will be of my consciousness when I die? Where does the universe ends etc tough provoking questions. But recently I have been trying to figure out who I truly am,what I Reilly want,what impact do I stand to make etc,my true identity,I see those I admire as distraction, I get sad when rejected and feel like am pathetic like am trying to hard like I should just be my old boring self,geeky nerdy and be happy,I feel this world is not for my kind. I ask questions upon questions,I could start crying now for no good reason,I am actually crying as I type this. Is something wrong with me?

I am handsome and I know that,But I wonder y I am not getting as much attention as others,I want to be rich,I have started thing of how to make money and be rich and famous,I feel dissatisfied in my situation,although I have no good reason to be,I am just eager to be rich,successful, to be celebrated,to be admired,to invent a ground breaking creation that the world would remember me for. I think I am rushing myself,But I think everything should start somewhere . So let me start now,so that I can get there as when expected.
I hardly communicate with people,I communicate with myself most of the time,I feel only me understands me better. I feel no one understands me.

In the past I have met girls I really like,But don't just know how to go about letting them know,But when I do to this particular girl I thought loved me,she was indifferent, since then I no longer believed in love,in fact I started hating girls,I think I am on a mission to teach every female a lesson for this. I kinda hate girls But am straight tho,no homo.

Please I need ur advice,what should I do,I spend alot of my time reading stuffs on the internet,trying to get answers,But it seems like am just wasting my time. Please I need to be happy,,I feel like am not happy,I feel like am not getting what I deserve. HELP!!!!! DO I HAVE A MENTAL PROBLEM?

[Travelinglady]

Hello, Hotice, and welcome to Psych Central! I am not a mental-health professional, but I would certainly say that you have some issues and would benefit from therapy. I am especially concerned about your "kinda hatred" toward women.

I am sorry your parents are the way you are. Perhaps in time you can prove yourself to be an adult, and you will feel comfortable doing what you want to do with your life. You do seem to be rushing things as far as being rich and famous. Of course, most of us become neither one, but we can be happy nonetheless.

You might want to consider taking this test to get an idea if you have any particular issues that stand out and possible diagnoses: http://www.sanityscore.com/.

Again, welcome!

[Thunder Bow]

Live your own life, not what parents and others or society tells you to live.