[CaptainKirk]

My name's Jake. I'm 16, and I've always had self esteem issues, I guess. People tell me I'm great, and some people even suggest that I'm physically attractive, but whenever I see myself in the mirror I just get mad. Firstly I hate everything about my face and body no matter what I do to change it. And then there's my personality.

I am a maladaptive daydreamer, and I've spent most of my life in a fantasy world. In fact, my daydreams turned into such massive parts of my life that I was actually diagnosed with schizophrenia and multiple personalities a year ago. For the longest time the fantasy got in the way of all normal human interactions and now, out in the real world, I have literally no idea what I'm doing. Every time I screw up in a conversation or do something stupid in public I just end up hating myself more. My sexual desires disgust me, my voice is just awful, nothing I do turns out okay, I always make the wrong decisions, and no matter what I do I can't get personal relationships right. It's always wrong, everything I do.

I can't stand myself. I'm such an awful self-critic and I can't stop myself from pointing out everything that I am doing wrong in every single daily situation. I don't know what to do.

[Thunder Bow]

You seem "Normal" to me. All you need to do is turn off the self critic, and just live your life. There is no way to be perfect. If you were perfect, you would be just another boring copy of some thing else, that is not You. There are no right decisions, personal relationships are never perfect, and never will be.

Be a Daydreamer, intergrate your multiple personalities, draw each one. Know that we all have and need multiple personalities, it is just a question of accepting each one into oneself in balance.

[angeldoll198032]

Hello, just read your thread..sorry you feel that way about yourself. Just want you to know that you are place here for a reason. Dont think that your life is not worth living. Realizing who you are and your identity as well as your purpose will help you deal with all the negative thoughts about yourself. Just think of it this way...somebody who may feel the same way is waiting to hear how you dealt with the same issues to get them through. I have a self worth with God and realize that I am created in His image. With this in mind, I believe that we are all here for a divine reason. Keep going...dont quit...find and embrace who you are, especially when you find who you are