I wish I was dead

He smokes weed and thinks that I called him a junkie (which is a sore spot with him ) but I didnt I said I know he hates my cousin for calling him one and back where im originally from he would b known as a junkie but I wasnt calling him one and now hes threatening me and I just want to kill myself he's taking it all out on my mum because he woulnt let me apologize or the misunderstanding and now hes threatening me and blaming my mum

I just realised that without noticing ive cut myself on my hands and arms with my nails

Scottish Domestic Abuse Helpline

I hope you stay safe. I've posted the link to the National Domestic abuse hotline in Scotland. If things get bad with your stepfather you can always call the police.

Don't hurt anyone. Don't hurt yourself.
Stay safe,
W

Please don't hurt yourself because your mother's boyfriend is being unkind. For the moment I would suggest you avoid discussing drug use (in any way, shape or form) with your mother's boyfriend. It sounds like he is looking for a fight.

Develop, as much as you are able, a healthy life outside of the house. If you are school age, please confide in a trusted teacher.

Move out and get out of that situation NOW! Then get yourself some help.

I want to move out but I have social anxiety so its going to be pretty hard for me to do an I know I shouldnt and wont hurt anyone myself included I feel like an idiot having hurt myself last night but it just hurt that my mum seemed to pick him over me I thought she'd atleast check I was ok but id just like to point out id had a drink last night and feel pretty embarrassed that I posted this on here at all

No ifs ands or buts. You need help, and you need to get out of that situation That situation worse for you than any form of social anxiety could ever be.

We're all here to find support and to offer support as we are able. You are welcome to post here anytime.