Looking for help

This is my first time posting on here..
I've realized that I do need help. I've been dealing with depression for years now and I've notice it gets worse each year. I try my hardest not to hurt myself, but it's getting harder each night for me to stay in control. I don't hang out with anyone really, because I never truly feel good enough to. I can't sleep at night because of insomnia, so my depression really hits then. I feel like anyone I talk to does not or won't truly understand how I feel. I don't just have depression, I have schitz, anxiety, and other issues I deal with from day to day. It's making me feel hopeless.
I don't intend on ever committing suicide, but I'm tired of feeling the way I do. I feel like there's a black blanket of bad thoughts over my head all the time. Other people make being positive and happy look and seem so easy. I just don't understand or feel like I could ever be truly happy. So I know I need help, but I don't know how or where to go. I'm 18 years old and I don't want to get my parents involved. They already have a lot of issues going on in their life and I don't want them to worry about me. This is something I want to do on my own. I was hoping someone could help me out on here and point me in the right direction.

Hi kaylaurynn, I'm sorry you're going through so much. Have you considered therapy? If money is an issue, you could try a sliding sale clinic. I truly hope things get better for you soon.

I feel very similarly to you. This forum has helped me a lot. There are lots of supportive people here Post more here and people will offer advice. You may want to check out the depression or anxiety forums. Also chatting in the groups can help with my mood. Good luck

Behind those happy faces of some those people, they also feel bad just like you. So do not compare yourself to others. No need for a mask.

Do not add to much on to yourself with those extra labels. No one feels happy 100% of the time, or sleep perfectly every night. Give yourself some slack. There are no quick fix for our feelings. As said above, talking to some one may help, if you are feeling over whelmed with depression.

Hi, i feel the same way you do apart that i already did hurt myself but that was years ago now i just endure it like i can, i hang up with some friends often but to be honest many of the times i go meet with them i don't want to i just go so that i won't lose the people i have left and yes anyone we can talk to won't know how we feel i even said to a friend once that only someone like me would be able to understand what i feel.

I also understand why you want to do this on your own and you can do it, go find help, what i did to get help was going to see my doctor i spoke with him about what happaned to me i didn't gave him too much details about it just enough for him too see that i needed help, he set everything up for me and i started to get treatment and yes it was that easy, i also didn't need to pay for anything only paid the appointment with the doctor to arrange things and the medication, in terms of service its not much good i have to wait long periods of time between appointments but its not that bad either, i kinda liked my psychologist's work and i feel very confortable speaking with her.

Good luck in finding help and thanks for what you wrote, its nice knowing that there is someone else like me in this world.